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If You Find Me

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There are some things you can’t leave behind…

A broken-down camper hidden deep in a national forest is the only home fifteen year-old Carey can remember. The trees keep guard over her threadbare existence, with the one bright spot being Carey’s younger sister, Jenessa, who depends on Carey for her very survival. All they have is each other, as their mentally ill mother co
Hardcover, 256 pages
Published March 26th 2013 by St. Martin's Griffin
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Wendy Darling
4.5 stars If You Find Me is a stunning debut that explores the consequences of child neglect.

The heart of this book is beautiful. There is poetic soul beneath the rough edges of backwoods dialect and unpolished story, and the honesty in the book's emotional journey shines through even when Carey is angry or scared. And while the ending may have felt a little too neat in some ways, there is redemptive and truthful quality to this girl's story that I respond to strongly. After all those years of l
Raeleen Lemay
Feb 28, 2015 Raeleen Lemay rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Raeleen by: Amber (Books of Amber)
Shelves: own

I CANNOT believe that I nearly got rid of this book without reading it! I had heard so many mixed reviews previous to starting the book, and they nearly turned me off completely. But then I read the first two pages... and was immediately sucked in.

It has been a while since I've read a really good book about family, AND THIS ONE FIXED THAT. This book is all about survival, coping with difficult living situations, and the insanely strong bond of two sisters. I cared so much for the characters
IF YOU FIND ME is being made into a MOVIE!

*popcorn flying everywhere*!!!!

** IF YOU FIND ME (Orion Indigo UK) has been shortlisted for the 2014 Waterstones Children's Book Prize for teen fiction. Such an honor!

AND ...

IF YOU FIND ME is an official YALSA Best Fiction for Young Adults (BFYA) selection for 2014. Thank you!

AND ... IYFM entered its third printing in the US! **


The UK paperback version of IF YOU FIND ME released on January 30t
Emily May
Apr 26, 2013 Emily May rated it really liked it

Believe the hype.

If You Find Me is one of those rare books that so expertly, sadly, wonderfully, horrifically captures the protagonist's pain. But not just pain. Their resilience, determination, fear and hope too. Fans of heartbreakingly powerful stories by authors such as Sara Zarr and Courtney Summers will surely fall in love with this story. A story which dragged my heart mercilessly along the ground without once feeling melodramatic or cliche or overdone. Emily Murdoch's debut is truly fant
May 08, 2013 Lisa rated it liked it
Actual rating: 2.5

If You Find Me is a novel with a lot of heart but, unfortunately, isn't very realistic in terms of plot, character development, or in its portrayal of the child welfare system.

If You Find Me tells the story of fourteen-year-old, Carey Blackburn, who lives in the wilderness with her younger sister, Jenessa, and her increasingly absent bipolar, meth addicted mother, who abducted Carey when she was four years old. Carey is the primary caregiver for her sister and is responsible f
Maja (The Nocturnal Library)
4.5 stars
I knew it! I knew I should follow my instincts and stay far, far away from this book, but as usual, I let you people convince me with your wonderful reviews and look where it got me! I am heartbroken and depressed. And I ate more ice cream than one person should in a lifetime. I hope you’re happy with yourselves.

If you find me, take me home, I’d written.

The story that poured out of Emily Murdoch and onto these pages is extraordinary in many ways, but above all, in that it defies analy
Mar 15, 2013 Giselle rated it it was amazing
Shelves: ebook, arc, contemporary
A deep and emotional journey into the lives of two very special girls, If You Find Me is a wonderfully inspiring story that brings us past the unimaginable horror it inhibits and makes it about hope instead, about second chances.

We meet Carey and Jenessa who are living--or surviving--in their mama's old camper in the woods. This immediately captured both my heart and rapt interest, seeing two very young girls having to fend for themselves in such cruel ways. I could see from the start how much C
Shelby *trains flying monkeys*
"A book is a living, breathing thing. It spends the first chapters of it's life curled up in the mind, symbiotic with its creator as it grows fat and round." Emily Murdoch

I'm so very glad that this book grew into being. I picked up this small book when I saw it on my friend Jenny's favorite's list. I didn't really imagine what a punch these 245 pages could begin to deliver.
Carey is fourteen and taking care of her sister Jenessa in a camper. Not just any camper-these girls have no running water,
* 3.5/5 stars! A beautiful story about survival, family and the strong bond between siblings. My favourite part about this book was definitely the relationship between the two sisters which was incredibly heart-warming and heartbreaking at the same time. However, I did have some problems with this book and specifically the portrayal of some of the characters, especially Delaney.
Sue (Hollywood News Source)

You can listen to If You Find Me playlist in 8tracks. Review also posted at Young Adult Hollywood.

I read If You Find Me in one sitting down beside my sister. I was fighting back the tears throughout the whole ordeal, but once in a while I would catch myself casually wiping the mist in my eyes. I instantly connected with this book's prose and characters. Truth be told, I ached for this book over and over again.

If You Find Me follows the story of two sisters who lived in the deepest part of the w
Cait Grace
So woah that was incredibly dark and I didn't quite expect that...and obviously I LOVED IT. I mean, I don't love what happened. But I loved the story and I loved the writing and...gah, it was an incredible book. BUT SO DARK. Like I felt literally sick inside at the end. I want to scoop up these characters and protect them forever because they are brave but tragic beans and my herat bleeds for them. YES. MY VULCAN HEART HAD AN EMOTION. (That is saying a lot, right?!?!)

The story really reminded me
Apr 16, 2013 ♥Rachel♥ rated it really liked it
Recommended to ♥Rachel♥ by: Read-along with Leanne
Shelves: netgalley-e-book
If You Find Me was a story that took me through a whole range of emotions, and tore out my heart at times, but for the most part, it was a story filled with hope.

Fifteen year-old Carey has been raised in woods with her little sister Jenessa by their mother, both isolated from the outside since for most of her life. Thanks to her mother, Carey has always been under the impression they ran to escape her dangerous father. Her life in the woods has been no picnic (total understatement), but she alw
Christina (Ensconced in Lit)
Feb 24, 2013 Christina (Ensconced in Lit) rated it it was amazing
Shelves: first-reads
I received this book from the Goodreads First Reads Program in exchange for an honest review.

If You Find Me by Emily Murdoch is a haunting read that will stay with you long after it's done. The novel stars Carey, a teenaged girl who has been living in an abandoned camper in the woods for years with her younger sister, Jenessa, who she has taken care of, while her druggie mother has been in and out of town and eventually, missing, for the past two months. The two girls get discovered by social se
Khanh (the Grinch)
This is a pretty heartbreaking story, and I found it a difficult read. There's no other way for me to say this without sounding like a horrible parson lacking empathy, but it was frustrating for me to read this book from Carey's point of view, because her world view is so warped from all the abuse she has suffered, and all the brainwashing her mother has put her through.

After nearly a decade of being kidnapped by her mentally unstable and drug-addicted mother, Carey and her half sister Jenessa w
There's no mistaking the fact that If You Find Me is a thoroughly compelling, affecting, and poignant read, and the fact that it is a debut novel makes those attributes all the more impressive. At first, I wasn't entirely sure whether or not If You Find Me would be something I'd end up liking, putting into consideration I'm not the type of reading who goes actively out of their way for deep and poignant novels concerning child abuse and topics similar to child abuse, but I am unquestionably sati ...more
Mar 14, 2013 Kelly rated it liked it
Carey and Janessa live in the woods -- Nessa's been there her entire young life but Carey's had a taste of the outside world, way back in the day. Their mother brought them there to protect them, but mom is never around. She's always out, looking for a way to feed the girls, for a way to keep them safe.

The story begins when that all changes. Carey and Nessa are taken from their home in the woods by authorities, who introduce them to their biological father and inform them they're going to be re
Mar 22, 2013 Arlene rated it it was amazing
Recommended to Arlene by: Wendy Darling
"If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together… there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But, the most important thing is, even if we’re apart… I’ll always be with you."

"...on beans I pray… "

Incredibly amazing!!

It always seems to be those amazing and moving books I experience that give me the most difficulty when attempting to put my reactions and emotions into words. If you were able to see the scribble
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I wasn't as enthralled with this book as everyone seems to be. I gave it a reluctant 3 stars because it was very readable, and Murdoch graced her protagonist, Carey, with a unique voice. But that's not to say this book was without problems.

Carey and her little sister, Nessa, live in the woods with their meth-addicted, bipolar mother. Nessa has never known civilization; she is the product of a "random fuck" with yet another dealer willing to take sex as payment. Carey was kidnapped by her mother
I think I need to reconsider one of my pet peeves.

After you read around in a genre, you start to develop your tastes. You learn to decipher tricky synopsises and read the codes to find the stories you would like, and you also learn about your own pet peeves. One of mine, as it turned out, is cutesy child characters. Namely, cutesy child characters that serve little purpose outside of motivation for the protagonist and a magnet for our sympathy. I despise poorly done characters as a rule, but it’
This was such a beautifully told tale--kept me glued at page one and I finished it in one sitting. The only qualm was that I felt the second half moved a little too quickly compared to the first half. I highly recommend this. 4.5 stars.
"I'm like Ness's broken-legged chipmunk, which had to be shaken and poked out of the birdcage once it healed, preferring the familiar, even if the familiar was a jail. Home is home."

I read this book with sad eyes and a hand clutched to my chest. If You Find Me me is a deeply affecting story of what happens after a girl, Carey (14), and her little sister Janessa (6), is reintroduced to society after spending a life isolated in the woods, with a drug-addicted, bipolar and just flat out despicabl
Nov 27, 2015 Giovanna rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
“If you find me, take me home.”

4.5 (maybe?)

I admit it...I got all teary eyed at some point. And well, that doesn't happen that often.

Carey and Jenessa live in a camper in the heart of the woods. It's been like this since their mom took them away, claiming that their dad was abusing them. But now Carey's mom is never there. And where she is she smells of smoke and meth and of the men she takes home with her. So Carey takes care of her sister until, one day, they find them.
And they decide to tak
Carey and Jenessa are living in a camper in the woods, surviving on beans and whatever else they can find for food. Used to their mother coming and going, often disappearing for long periods of time, they don't think anything different of this time - until she doesn't come back. Instead, two strangers find them and take them back to the world outside. If You Find Me is a story of two sisters adapting to a new life, facing the painful truth of their past and confronting their mother's behaviour, ...more
Heartbreaking, poignant tale of survival. Tissues required.

If You Find Me by Emily Murdoch is a poignant, heartbreaking story of survival under horrid circumstances. It’s not your usual young adult novel. It’s the story of an extraordinary girl who raises her little sister alone in a trailer in the Tennessee woods, mere miles away from her father.

The story is narrated by Carey, the 14 year old heroine of the story. Every so often there are flashbacks to Carey’s past and how she and her sister
Joy (joyous reads)
Apr 02, 2013 Joy (joyous reads) rated it it was amazing
If there ever was a book that had taken me by surprise, it's this debut work by Emily Murdoch. To be frank, the story about a pair of siblings left to fend off for themselves in the woods didn't seem all that novel, in my opinion. The subject of parental abandonment and neglect have been told, discussed and dissected in many forms.

In YA, absent parents are as a normal occurrence as kids falling in love with their best buds. I'd expected some things to happen as soon as they were found: the newne
Initial reaction: I loved the writing, the voice and the honesty in this narrative, even if there were some parts of it I had to suspend disbelief for. It was well worth the time, and hopefully I expound on why in the full review.

Full review:

Emily Murdoch's "If You Find Me" was such an emotionally gutting read for me. There wasn't a single time in the course of reading this novel that I put it down - the prose is fluid, the conflict palpable, the characters identifiable. I really liked Carey's r
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IF YOU FIND ME is a gut-wrenching tale of abuse and abandonment. It will make you want to hug every child you see and protect them from the evils of the world.

As a child, children should have the luxury to behave as such and they are supposed to be loved and protected from all harm. Fifteen-year old Carey has not had this luxury in her short life. As the daughter of a meth addicted, mentally ill mother, Carey has had to take on the role that should have been her mother’s responsibility – the rol
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There is still an teary eyeliner stain on my pillow, and it’s Emily Murdoch that should pay my laundry bill. Taken to live off the grid in the woods by their unreliable mother, two sisters scrape by on beans and old books, until social services intervene. This book deals with a lot of issues and could have felt Dr Phil special, but lead character Carey’s voice never lets that happen. I was rooting for her from start to tear-stained finish. — Rachel Weber

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Jan 24, 2015 Joca rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Carey e Nessa estão sozinhas numa cabana, no meio da floresta. Sozinhas porque a sua mãe as foi deixando lá, por períodos de tempo cada vez mais longos. Até que um dia não voltou.

Embora a Carey esteja na cabana desde os 5 anos e a sua irmã mais nova tenha nascido lá, nenhuma delas tem noção do que se passa para além das árvores que as rodeiam. Isto porque foram completamente isoladas do mundo exterior por uma mãe drogada, que as mal trata.

Vão tendo acesso a alguns livros e roupas em péssimo est
Jessie  (Ageless Pages Reviews)
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Wow. Impressive. Rich. Emotional. Heartbreaking. These are only some of the words that come to mind after finishing this short but powerful novel. Emily Murdoch writes with the authority, care, and subtlety of a much more experienced storyteller. If You Find Me is a strong, sad and quietly impressive debut from a very talented new author; one that promises more good things to come in the future from such a writer. Beautifully written, with an amazin
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Emily is a writer, a poet, and a lover of books. There's never a time she's without a book. Her debut novel, IF YOU FIND ME, Released in 2013 through St. Martin's Griffin and Orion/Indigo UK.

IF YOU FIND ME, a Carnegie Medal 2014 longlister and a Waterstones Children's Book Prize 2014 shortlister, is also a YALSA BFYA selection of 2014, has earned starred reviews from Booklist, Kirkus, and School L
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