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This is Who I Am (Masters of the Shadowlands #7)

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When trying to save a woman from slavers, Sam screwed up. Royally. Now Linda wants nothing to do with him. Or with BDSM. She won’t even admit she’s a masochist. As a dominant and sadist, he can give her what she needs, and when an opportunity arises, he slips into her life, intending to make amends. She’s everything he knew she would be…except for her bullheaded determinat ...more
ebook, 369 pages
Published May 27th 2013 by Loose Id, LLC
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UniquelyMoi ~ BlithelyBookish

I thoroughly enjoyed this story! It wasn't nearly as angsty, or dark, or uncomfortable to read as I had thought it would be, and if I'm honest with myself, had, on some level, even hoped it would be. But as I finished the epilogue I realized that to have changed the pacing and intensity at all would have detracted from the honest feel of Linda's healing, as well as Sam's opening himself up and allowing himself to love and be loved. These things take time when you're as scarred as these two incre
Jun 15, 2013 Esra rated it it was amazing

me after read Info on Cherise's website:
I’m in contract negotiations with the publisher of the previous Shadowlands books, and until a resolution is reached, poor Master Sam won’t have a release (pun intended ).
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Jun 19, 2013 Lisa rated it it was amazing

'This won’t hurt much’ from a sadist is as believable as hearing a root canal is just a little uncomfortable.

Holy pain buckets! I sure did love me Master Sam!

Not sure what that says about me! 0_0




Love between Mr. Sadistic Rancher and Ms. Conservative Business Woman.


This Is Who I Am is the seventh book in the Masters of the Shadowlands series by Cherise Sinclair. This book features the story of our good ole neighborhood sadist, Sam, and a rescued slave who just so happens to be a submissive m
Stacey is Sassy
Aug 03, 2015 Stacey is Sassy rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: kinky
Interesting to step out of my comfort zone once in awhile...

This Is Who I Am was definitely a step out of my comfort zone. I have faith that Cherise Sinclair can convince me that BDSM is not as scary as I thought. I know she can convince me that a paddling isn’t the worst thing to happen to a person and can actually give some pleasure. I’m convinced that a collared submissive can be very happy with the right dominant. Make me think that a submissive masochist will get pleasure from seeing her sa
Jun 16, 2013 Isabella rated it it was amazing
After reading:

Master Sam. Master Sam!!!!! #InLove



OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!

I need this book in a way that can't be healthy.
Jun 12, 2014 Praj rated it liked it
A little kink was one thing. Needing to be hurt was entirely different.

Until the moment when the flogger seductively aroused the supple skin to a crimson glow, the arousing sound crackling through the midnight rain on my window, I was unaware of the burgeoning feelings within me. Oh, Shadowlands how have I missed you so dearly! Where do I begin to tell the tale of my misery? A spate of recent erotica drought had brought along disheartening shadows over my literary raptures. “Brace yourself, li
ETA 5/14/13: Excerpt from Cherise's website
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For me, it was disappointing. This book was somewhere in-between bad and just ok. I think at this point I'm over Shadowlands series.

I was exited to start this one, because of Sam. I thought it will be interesting and intense read, but it turned out to be somewhat vanilla-ish. And it's not Cherise Sinclair's fault. I think it's because Tiffany Reisz ruined me for any other sadists and masochists out there :-).

I did not care for Linda at all. I understand she has been through hell and back, but s
Duchess Nicole
"Even sadists had to hurt sometimes."

Sam is a dominant and a sadist:

Linda is a submissive and a masochist:

Match made in heaven, right?

But the way these two met was less than perfect. Sam helps to rescue Linda from a slavers ship, but in order to do that he had to act like a buyer. In essence, he had to gain her trust in the middle of one of the most degrading and terrifying experiences of Linda's life. And in doing so, he forced her to see her masochistic side while tied up and vulnerable to
☆ Sammy ☆彡
Jun 01, 2013 ☆ Sammy ☆彡 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: alpha-goodness

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Sam is one of the Masters of the BDSM club Shadowlands and he is a well known sadist, particularly known for his skills with a whip. Sam is pretty emotionally detached from others, isn't particularly talkative (mainly due to issues with his ex wife), he is fiercely protective of others, and is very blunt/honest.

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We were introduced to Linda in To Command and Collar when both Raoul and Sam helped the FBI take down part of the Harvest Association (a known human traff
Jun 01, 2013 Christy rated it really liked it
4.5 Stars!!!

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I have been patiently waiting for Master Sam’s book for a while now... I’m not going to lie. There were several books in this series that had me a little scared and intimidated by Master Sam. He is one of the Doms in the Shadowlands, but he is different than the others. Not only is he a little older (in his 50’s), but he is a sadist. In book 6, Sam won my heart. I loved him even more in this book.

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At the end of book 6, Master Sam goes to the slave auction to try to help free some
5 stars
“You’re the only person I know who can say ‘girl’ and mean ‘I love you and want to fuck you.’”

I have been waiting for Master’s Sam story since the very first book, there was just the aura about him that was always present, even though it took seven books to be the main character, he was a character that forever stayed with you, made you shiver and squirm in your chair. Having devoured this book, Sam and Linda’s story was everything I wanted and more…
"… Mr. Sadistic Rancher and Ms.
Nov 18, 2013 Teebee rated it really liked it
Shelves: cherise-sinclair
OMGOMGOMG!!! I've died and gone to BDSM heaven!!!!

More Masters in the Shadowlands!!!! It's Sam!!!! He's older than the others but it's all good! I would still give a perfect submissive pose for him!!!

I love these books!

Ok, I've finished " This is Who I am"... and of coarse, I loved it.
It has a different feel to it, from the other books and I think it's because the couple is older. I could relate more!
I've always said Sam is HOT, Hot, Hot! I'm not into the sadist / masochist thing but Sam makes m
Mirjana ***Let's Sound It Out - - - Mary-On-A***

***3.5 Stars***

These are the hardest reviews to write. I didn't dislike the book, not at all, but I unfortunately didn't love it either. Nothing really wowed me while reading, and frankly, I even found myself bored at times.

I know, I know! A sadist and a masochist...and I'm bored?!? This should say more about me than the book....but you see, Sam didn't feel much like a true sadist. He lacked the intensity that I was looking for and needing from him. A Dom...oh yes, he definitely carried himself
Jun 01, 2013 Glamdring rated it really liked it
Shelves: romantica-bdsm, 2013
*Review without spoilers*

He gave her a contemplative stare as if he’d never had a woman tease him. Then again, who in their right mind would tease a sadist?

Amongst the BDSM themed books the sadist/masochist couples are part of the ones I like the least. I’m sorry, but I can’t find a sadist appealing so if I can help it I tend to avoid BDSM books with sadist heroes.

That being said, even though I knew that Sam and Linda fell in that category I couldn’t wait to read “This is Who I Am”. For three
Vikki ~ *squee* lite ~
May 31, 2013 Vikki ~ *squee* lite ~ rated it really liked it
Shelves: coming-soon
Oh, I just love Master Sam :). I wasn't sure if this one was going to work for me. I have a bizarre fascination with trying to understand sadists (and to be honest, I don't feel any closer after reading this book), and I was totally intrigued by Sam in the previous book, but he was still a character that made me take a mental step back.

Luckily, I was rewarded. I loved the story of Sam and Linda. It was smokin' hot, with tons of emotion, just like I've come to expect from this series. Linda was
May 30, 2013 Nusejka rated it it was amazing
Excerpt, bitches! wooohooo! I love these guys -

OMG May 28th!!! Finally!
Jun 02, 2013 Holly rated it it was amazing
Shelves: bdsm
I need to start by saying what a huge fan of the Masters of the Shadowlands series I am!! I think I kinda forget how much I love everything about these books and characters until I dive back into their stories.

I have been anxiously awaiting Master Sam's story for quite some time now. For a few reasons really. One is that, unlike some BDSM books, there is a lot going on in the background of these books. In the last installment we saw some of the key players at Shadowlands involved in taking down
May 28, 2013 Jen rated it really liked it
Shelves: sinclair, fv, mf
Sam and Linda

Full review on Fiction Vixen Book Reviews

Sam the sadist. Sam has always been the scary one when we were visiting Shadowlands. He was always the one that made the women nervous and the one the men had mad respect for. I was nervous for his book because while all Ms. Sinclair’s books are heavy BDSM, they are more heavy on toys and creative techniques like ropes, fire or electricity. I can’t recall one where there would be so much emphasis on the pain aspect. But Ms. Sinclair is one o
Jo * Smut-Dickted *
Aug 03, 2013 Jo * Smut-Dickted * rated it it was amazing
Shelves: read-on-kindle, bdsm, mf
Love the title. It really sums up the book. As a masochist I definitely enjoyed the focus on masochism here. While the D/s is just as important in this one I find that there is such a plethora of D/s books that us S&M folks get short shrift frequently. Particularly how we process pain and what that means to us. I have to say I felt this gem was written just for me. It had all the stuff I like and none of the stuff I hate.

* Sam was unapologetic. Yep. If you start apologizing for the sadism i
The BookChick
My Rating:
VERY GOOD: The characteristics of a 4 star book include: a great story; I loved the characters; and there was an interesting plot and unique story elements; there may have been a few odd things kept the story from being amazing. I would read it again and I would recommend it to a friend.
My Thoughts:
Make no mistake that Cherisse Sinclair kicks it up a notch with this installment in the Shadowlands series. This Is Who I Am was gripping, intense, and sweetly sexy. The characters and th
Jun 04, 2013 ~V~ rated it really liked it
Master Sam!! He frightened me in the earlier books so i was a little bit nervous to read his story being as how he's a Sadist but he wasn't scarey at ALL, in fact he was..*gasp*...SO SWEET and damn sexy!! In fact it was quite refreshing to read about a man in his 50s and a woman in her 40s! I loved Master Sam...I love Cherise Sinclair...and i love this series!! Can't wait for the next book!

My Master Sam...


Love Linda and Sam! :D
t'irla ~The Bookslayer~ t'irla's Talk Book Blog
May 30, 2013 t'irla ~The Bookslayer~ t'irla's Talk Book Blog rated it it was amazing
Recommends it for: Everyone who loves to read Kink but with great characters and stories
Only Cherise Sinclair could make a sadist someone you love and root for! CS you never disappoint!!


When trying to save a woman from slavers, Sam screwed up. Royally. Now Linda wants nothing to do with him. Or with BDSM. She won’t even admit she’s a masochist. As a dominant and sadist, he can give her what she needs, and when an opportunity arises, he slips into her life, intending to make amends. She’s everything he knew she would be…except for her bullheaded determination to be ‘norm
Paris        (kerbytejas)
May 18, 2014 Paris (kerbytejas) rated it it was amazing
Shelves: read-2013

The book title “This is Who I am” says it all. It is the personal acceptance of who you are. This is not a book about broken or damaged people who turn to the BDSM lifestyle to find themselves. This is a journey of love, acknowledgement, and acceptance of one’s self. This is two people who complement each other’s sexual tastes, desires and needs. This is a book about prejudice, and other people assumptions, a book where ones sexual taste defines them in the eyes of others.

What is sex, pleasure?
Feb 25, 2016 Heather rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favorites, erotica, bdsm
update: reread Jan 2016
I wasn't ready for Sam and Linda's book the first time I read it. I now have a better appreciation for these two characters. Most likely this updated review would have been better if I wrote it right after my reread but life and obligations put it off. so this is it, until next time.

Linda is a submissive masochist who was just discovering her kinky before she was kidnapped by slavers. In the last book she was set free and all she wants to do is forget her slavery period. H
Sep 12, 2014 Brizy added it
I can't wait for Sam's story but I also hope there is point of view from Jessica and Master Z about maybe their wedding or having kids because I could see A great story unfold!!!
P.A. Lupton
Jun 01, 2013 P.A. Lupton rated it really liked it

I was a bit apprehensive going into this book, unsure how I’d respond the heavy S&M I knew was going to be a part of the plot. It was actually really good and I enjoyed it. Although, I should’ve never doubted Cherise, she hasn’t let me down yet. She is my favorite author in this genre, hands down.

One of the things I love about Cherise Sinclair is her portrayal of the BDSM lifestyle always feels authentic. It’s so obvious the amount of research she’s put into making it realistic, and I even l
Annie (Under the Covers Book Blog)

In the long awaited seventh book in the Masters of the Shadowlands series, Cherise Sinclair aka Master of BDSM Erotica makes all the waiting worth the outcome. THIS IS WHO I AM has the same elements that readers have loved in the previous books of the series – ominous, but fair Doms, irresistible heroines and a touch of suspense and darkness that makes each page you read a thrilling experience! But everything seems to be better – the pacing is perfection, the characterizations more than enough
May 30, 2013 Katya rated it it was amazing
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Whenever I ask for BDSM recommendations, I am told the same two words all the time: Cherise Sinclair. ~ Under the Covers Reviews

Authors often say their characters argue with them. Unfortunately, since Cherise Sinclair’s heroes are Doms, she never, ever wins.

A New York Times and USA Today bestselling author, she’s renowned for writing heart-wrenching romances with laugh-out-loud dialogue, devastati
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Other Books in the Series

Masters of the Shadowlands (10 books)
  • Club Shadowlands (Masters of the Shadowlands, #1)
  • Dark Citadel (Masters of the Shadowlands, #2)
  • Breaking Free (Masters of the Shadowlands, #3)
  • Lean on Me (Masters of the Shadowlands, #4)
  • Make Me, Sir (Masters of the Shadowlands, #5)
  • To Command and Collar (Masters of the Shadowlands, #6)
  • If Only (Masters of the Shadowlands, #8)
  • Show Me, Baby (Masters of the Shadowlands, #9)
  • Servicing the Target (Masters of the Shadowlands, #10)

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“He didn't require some eighteen-year-old to make his cock hard. He wanted a woman, one with lines in her face that said she'd done some living and had learned to cry. And to laugh.” 5 likes
“Eventually the girl would discover that sadists tended to be politer than regular Doms—at least, when not in a scene. After all, if a sadist was nasty, then how would he get anyone to play with him?” 3 likes
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