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By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

3.89  ·  Rating Details  ·  18,292 Ratings  ·  1,584 Reviews
Daelyn (15) – erster Selbstmordversuch vor fünf Jahren, da sie von ihren Mitschülern wegen ihres Übergewichts drangsaliert wird. Letzter Selbstmordversuch vor einem Jahr; trägt seitdem eine Nackenschiene und ist vorübergehend stumm. Nächster Selbstmordversuch frühestens in 23 Tagen – dieses Mal soll es der Letzte sein ... Aus diesem Grund meldet sich Daelyn bei dem Interne ...more
Paperback, 251 pages
Published January 6th 2012 by Franckh Kosmos Verlag (first published April 1st 2009)
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Ariana Glover Yes, you can still find it in stores. Barnes&Noble has it.
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Sep 29, 2010 Caris rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2010, young-adult

Caris: I finished it.

karen: did you cry?

Caris: I got angry. That last page was a load of bullshit.

karen: so damn much of it was bullshit. but hey - at least there were a lot of tips on how to kill yourself properly! take notes, teens!

Caris: Those tips were something else. They seemed the closest thing to propaganda in the book (other than that goddamned last page). How can so many ways to die be at the top of the pain scale? It's like she was telling you

this is the second part of a conversation about this book!! i got caris' sloppy seconds! to read the first part, please click here!

Caris: Maybe it was just your personality. Perhaps you're just not the type of dude who gets bullied. You know, badassery and whatnot.

I certainly cave on this point. The book was unbelievable. Both the website and Santana were only there to keep the girl from killing herself. Of course, all books do this. It seems that the bar is just set lower for teen ficti
Steph Su
Mar 23, 2010 Steph Su rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS, I’LL BE DEAD tore my insides raw. As I read, I screamed. I cried. I threw the book across the room. I apologized and cradled it delicately in my hands. I also chuckled and fell in love with the characters, flawed as they all are. Julie Anne Peters is nearly unmatched when it comes to writing about difficult, taboo, controversial, and absolutely necessary subjects, and her latest book is a terrifying masterpiece that deserves to find its way into everyone’s hands.

Liberty Abbott-Sylvester
Feb 03, 2010 Liberty Abbott-Sylvester rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: all parents
Teen suicide. Not an easy subject to think or talk about. This book tells the story of Daelyn. She's 15 and determined to die this time. Yes, you read correctly...she's tried to kill herself before and failed. This time she knows it will work. A victim of bullies, she can't face life anymore. She thinks everyone will be happier without her. One day after school she meets Santana and things start to look a little different, but is it too late?

As a mother of a child who was bullied and talked abou
Mar 02, 2012 Connie rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: kindle
This book ticked me off more than any I've read since My Sister's Keeper. Just like Picoult's book, this novel slapped me in the face at the end and negated whatever positive experience I might have gained from it.

By the Time You Read This ... could have been a good book. It was fast-moving and compulsively readable. Then I got to the end and literally said out loud, "What the hell?" Without giving too much away, I'll say this: Cliffhangers can be effective literary devices when done well. Menta
Tyler Knight
I'll start off by saying this book made me think...and I love books that make me think. I used to be a depressed and suicidal teenager. It got to the point where I tried to kill myself everyday. The last time I tried...I succeeded. I overdosed on a bunch of sleeping pills and died multiple times during that day. After that day...I was changed. I like to try and see the beauty in everything before seeing their flaws because everything has flaws, but the beauty is what people s
Samantha Elizabeth
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Oct 11, 2011 Heather rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Daelyn has been demeaned, bullied, tortured and almost raped through her years in school. For some reason, the teachers and principals always believe the other students, making her feel further bullied. Daelyn was overweight most of her life and that was the main fodder for the bullies, but not all. She tried to make her parents listen, but they just passed it off as kids being kids. Her mom went on diets with her saying it would be "fun" and her father would sneak food to her at night. She was ...more
Libro Joven
Feb 09, 2010 Libro Joven rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This book was hard, but at the same time it was so enthralling. Reading so openly about bullying and a parasuicidal kid made my stomach into a knot, but I couldn't keep my eyes off the book until I was finished with it. It is short, but at the same time, it feels so long. Not because it's boring, but because the topics it talked about felt so... important, maybe? I'm not sure what's the right word for it. I'm not sure there's a right word for it.

If you enjoyed "Willow", by Julia Hoban, this is d
Charley Cook
Jan 16, 2015 Charley Cook rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
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Sep 19, 2015 Ciara rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition

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Sep 03, 2011 Taylor rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I thought that it was a good book to show how drasticly people react to things like being called names and being made fun of. I feel like the people in this book actually exist. Although I really liked this book, there was a reason for me giving it four stars. She gave up. She was a hard character to get at the beginning because I haven't had to deal with characters before, but by the end of the book I viewed her as a heroine and... she died. She. Just. Gave. Up. I really liked her character and ...more
Jul 27, 2009 Kate rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Kate by: Tammy
Shelves: age-ya, 2009, arcs, realistic
My friend Tammy dropped this off at the library for me to read, and one day as I was waiting for the virus scan to run on my work computer, I started reading. I only got 12 pages in and I told myself I would continue the next day at lunch. By the next day, Lexi (the intern who shares my desk) had also started reading it while virus scans were running. She took it home and finished it that night. I had other things to read, but the whole time I was wondering and worrying about the girl in the sto ...more
Sulis Peri Hutan
Sep 23, 2015 Sulis Peri Hutan rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: koleksiku, buntelan
Cara Bunuh Diri Yang Dipilih Daelyn Rice

Keefektifan: Beberapa cara pernah dipilih, seperti mengiris nadi, menelan cairan amonia dan pemutih namun Daelyn tetap selamat. Sambil menunggu waktu dan membaca pengalaman orang-orang melakukan bunuh diri, dia akan memikirkannya nanti, cara lainnya yang akan dipakai untuk mengakhiri hidupnya dengan cepat.

Waktu: 23 hari.

Ketersediaan: Tergantung apakah ada faktor penghambat, seperti orangtuanya yang selalu mengawasi dirinya dan tidak pernah membiarkan dirin
Sab H.  (YA Bliss)
Whoa!! I was not expecting this, specially in such a short read. This is probably the most torn I've been since I finished Ballads of Suburbia. This book is so harsh. And raw. And wrong. And cruel. And depressing. And sick. Oh, and I loved, loved, loved it. Even though my stomach sometimes didn't. I had physical ache while reading, that's how amazing it was. Seriously, I believe every person alive should read it. If you dare to read something so heart-wrenching that will most likely stick with y ...more
Thea Villa
Jun 07, 2013 Thea Villa rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
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Jaime Arkin
this book instantly intrigued me when i saw the title and description. it a tough read ... heavy and sometimes hard to stomach but completely worth it.

daelyn is hard to grasp as a character i felt sorry for her but i was also mad. she was giving up and i wanted her to fight for her life and happiness. her relationship with her parents made me want to pull my hair out... but i had hope towards the end but then .... no resolution. i imagine im supposed to determine in my own mind what really happ
May 14, 2015 Circe rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2013, favorites, reviewed
By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead.

Bueno... ¿Qué carajos fue ese final? ¿En serio un final abierto? ¿Que le pesaba a Julie escribir unas líneas más para terminar todo estas dudas?

Esta historia transcurre con Daelyn, que conoce a un chico, Santana, que se siente en la banca junto a ella cuando Daelyn espera a que su madre o padre la vaya a buscar, ha intentado suicidar varias veces, lo que ella dice esto que son intentos fallidos.

Todo este libro transcurre en cómo es el pasado de Daelyn y el
Anastasia Cynthia
“Aku hanya tahu, aku bangun tiap pagi dan berharap aku mati.” –By the Time You Read This, I’ll Be Dead, hlm. 78

Daelyn tidak gemuk, tapi ia selalu berpikir sebaliknya. Menjadi gumpalan lemak menjijikkan. Menjadi bahan tertawaan teman-teman di sekolah. Memang untuk hal-hal itulah dirinya diciptakan.

Orangtuanya bisa saja pindah dari sebuah kondominium, membeli rumah di sebuah lingkungan baru enam bulan lalu untuk sebuah awal baru. Tapi, bagi Daelyn. Semuanya tetap sama. Ia tidak perlu teman, sama
Abduraafi Andrian
Jun 06, 2015 Abduraafi Andrian rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: terjemahan, 2015
Akhirnya. Buku yang bagus. Membuatku berpikir.


Tidak percaya orang lain—bahkan orangtuanya sendiri. Merasa takut berhubungan dengan orang lain hingga tidak mau bicara bahkan membisukan diri. Dan bila dalam tingkat paling akut, akan selalu mencoba bunuh diri bila ada kesempatan.

Yah, aku pernah merasakannya dulu. Tapi aku mencoba bersikap terbuka walaupun kadar kehati-hatiannya masih tinggi—pada waktu itu. Siapa yang bisa hidup sendiri tanpa bantuan orang lain? Siapa yang tahu kalau bunuh diri
Yelania Nightwalker
No puedo decir con exactitud todo lo que este libro me ha hecho sentir. Desde la primera página me conecté con Daelyn, podía sentir su dolor, su desesperación, su tristeza.

Debido a su sobrepeso, ella tiene una muy baja autoestima y ha sufrido de intimidación toda su vida, hasta que simplemente no puede soportarlo más y decide suicidarse. Lo ha intentado en múltiples ocasiones, ha intentado de todo, pero no ha conseguido su propósito. Sus padres apenas y confían ya en ella por esta causa.

Un día,
Hannah Ashworth
Apr 09, 2011 Hannah Ashworth rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: people who need to wake up—absolutely the best suicide/depressed character book I've ever read.
Julie Anne Peters's By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead is a truly interesting read. Through the book we learn more about Daelyn, a depressed high school girl, and why she wants so badly to commit suicide after several failed attempts. However things may not particularly go the way she planned them, and maybe that's even for the better.

I have so many things to talk about, and about none of them are bad, so you might as well call my review a "praise" instead.

What I really liked about this boo
I read this for the Teen Parenting Program Book Discussion Group.

It is very strange.

I did feel bad for her but she is really being a bummer.

I guess I just wish she could see the good things in life. And I say this coming from a background of being a very depressed teen myself who didn't see the light until after college. But she definitely had some horrible experiences that I can see why she would be acting that way. I guess I just wish I could help her, or that someone had helped her before s
Aug 04, 2011 Shannon rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I absolutely loved this book.

.. until the last page, that is.
While reading this, I, myself, was going through some difficult things as well. Ms. Peters wrote the subject of suicide very, very well. And at times, I actually wanted such a website to exist. There were parts in this book where I yearned to be sitting next to Daelyn, the suicidal, partially mute main character, hugging her, somehow reassuring her things would be okay. And there were parts in this book where I cried, because I related
Sometimes, rarely, a book will have a physical effect on me. Every time that I paused while reading this book, I found myself almost gasping for air. I wasn't exactly holding my breath. It was Daelyn's thoughts that were suffocating me. I can't explain why I felt this way, exactly. Maybe it was the complete sense of emptiness she had. Maybe it was the calm and certain way she was planning her death, after multiple failed attempts. On that note, I feel reading this could be full of triggers for a ...more
Apr 24, 2012 Hanna rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
While the book is quite disturbing, it’s an eye-opener at the same time. It gyrates on the woeful life of Daelyn Rice who at a very young age got bullied inexorably. Due to a failed suicide attempt, she became incapacitated to speak. The stigmas poisoned her: the way she reasons out seems irrational sometimes. The way she treats people seems like a simulacrum that she’s a bully herself. At least, that’s what I think.

While reading the book, I felt like I bought myself a manual in committing suici
Dion Yulianto
Betapa berbahayanya kata-kata ketika digunakan untuk mem-bully, maka benar sebuah ungkapan yang berbunyi bahwa kata-kata bisa membunuh, atau mendorong seseorang untuk membunuh dirinya sendiri. Sebuah buku bagus tentang bullying. Ulasan panjang lebar kali tinggi ada di

Bravo Santana
... #heartwreckingstory ... #stopbullying ...

more about this book, just check my complete review at here :
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Sep 11, 2010 Thomas rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I really liked this book - I would instantly distribute it to a lot of individuals attending my school. Bullying is an abusive, hurtful, and often times overlooked behavior that breaks the self-esteem of kids and teens. It was understandably difficult to read this, but I trudged through the torturous things Daelyn experienced.

Daelyn may be a bit unsympathetic for most readers, but her circumstance made it all the more believable to me. The writing was also solid. I am looking forward to reading
Actual rating 4.5

Not a real ''review'' like book bloggers do, but it's something.

I'm not really sure what to say about this book. It was hard for me to read at times, but I never really wanted to put it down. Sometimes I had to, just to give myself time to clear my head.

Daelyn was a very real character, in my opinion. As was Santana. Both characters were different and had their own problems. They complimented each other well. I personally ADORED Santana and his ''relationship'' with Daelyn.

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Julie Anne Peters was born in Jamestown, New York. When she was five, her family moved to the Denver suburbs in Colorado. Her parents divorced when she was in high school. She has three siblings: a brother, John, and two younger sisters, Jeanne and Susan.

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