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Chase in Shadow (Johnnies #1)

4.18  ·  Rating Details ·  3,405 Ratings  ·  519 Reviews
Chase Summers: Golden boy. Beautiful girlfriend, good friends, and a promising future.

Nobody knows the real Chase.

Chase Summers has a razor blade to his wrist and the smell of his lover’s goodbye clinging to his skin. He has a door in his heart so frightening he’d rather die than open it, and the lies he’s used to block it shut are thinning with every forbidden touch. Cha
Paperback, 320 pages
Published February 24th 2012 by Dreamspinner Press (first published February 23rd 2012)
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Kaje Harper
Feb 28, 2012 Kaje Harper rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favorites, m-m, intense
Damn you, Amy Lane. I had things to do today, plans, obligations. I had my own writing too, and I left my guys waiting in the middle of a freaking sex scene to finish this book and watch you bring Chase and Tommy safely home.

Chase is a very young man who is trying to be a good person. He tries so hard to do the right thing, while locking his fears and pain and demons away in his head behind a red door. He's gay and he can't admit it, can't even think about it. Then a comment from a friend sugges
I had three thoughts when I finished this book:

1. I LOVED this book too much, and damn I'm a glutton for angst, because I'm actually giddy.
2. Amy Lane may not be for everyone, but her books ROCK MY WORLD
3. I wonder when the next one is coming out?

Now the story...

The Broken Boy
...Self-Destructive Fuckery, thy name is Chase "Chance" Summers

Chase Summers is a young man who has been tampering with the reality of what and who he is his whole life. A horrible childhood, a mother who took her own life,
Heather K (dentist in my spare time)

Amy Lane's Johnnies series?

I mean this is Amy "rip-your-heart-out" Lane we're talking about! I love when she tears me to pieces. I'm an Amy Lane specific masochistic. I was like, "DO YOUR WORST! I'm ready!"

Somehow I read all of the other books in the Johnnies series before this one, the one that started it all. In fact, Dex in Blue was my first Amy Lane. The characters from "Chase in Shadow" are mentioned over and over in the other two books in the series, so I had a VERY good idea about the tid
Monique ~ Sinfully
Sep 11, 2012 Monique ~ Sinfully rated it really liked it
This is a love story, beautiful and tragic in it's tale which will captivate you and hold your heart to ransom right to the very end.....4.5 stars


At times during this book, I actually found it hard to read and not in a bad way, but because there is such profound raw emotion and heartbreak hiding behind the persona that is Chase Summers. He is 20 years old and in my eyes he was still a boy...a boy that lost his way in life 14 years earlier when the tragic death of his mother leaves him with the
Meli Mel *Ty and Zane's Creeper*

4.5 Painful Stars

'Yes. Yes. I want something true. I want you. I want you so bad.'

Oh, my heart!! This book broke it. I knew that it was going to be an emotional read just by reading the blurb, BUT, I didn't know how intense it would be. What a journey.

Chase 'Chance' Summers seems to have it all. He has a perfect girlfriend he loves, great friends who adore him and he goes to school and it looks like he may have a successful future. Like I said, it seems like nothing wrong could ever happen t


This one was really really TOUGH to read. This is my first solo Amy Lane read and now I understand how angsty her books are!

If you notice the cover has a door. And if you read the story, Chase mentioned a red door that's always on his mind.
So I was inspired to share this little poem about a DOOR.


I touched the door...

I opened the door...

Feb 13, 2016 Xandra rated it it was ok
Shelves: smut-mm
2.5 stars
If you plan on reading this book, I warn you that you’ll spend most of the time being mad. Or sad. Or both. This book is about Chase. He’s a self-centered idiot and the whole fucking universe revolves around him. He’s a moron and a scumbag and a coward and a liar and a douche bag and goddammit, I hated him!!! And you’ll be stuck with him for more than 300 pages.

I think it’s pretty clear by now that this isn’t a smart and insightful review, but some very subjective ramblings (god, I hate
T.A. Webb
Feb 25, 2012 T.A. Webb rated it it was amazing
Chase is a college student, working on his degree. A baseball jock. The All American boy. Struggling, living with his girlfriend Mercy, the two work hard to maintain an apartment, and school, and plan, and save for a future.

Chase comes from a harsh background. Raised by his father after his mother committed suicide when he was a young boy, he’s struggled to be the perfect son. His father’s scorn drives him to be more, have more, make no missteps.

So when his friends mention a local gay filmmaking
Jul 10, 2014 Barbara rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: m-m, br, hot, angst

Another BR with awesome friends

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Chase in Shadow is a emotionally exhausting, and heart-breaking story, I has left with some mixed feelings, and a heavy weight on my chest, such a fantastic writing of a person living in denial… refusing to face the truth!!
Although the story does bounce around a bite, I surely loved the intensity of Chase and Tommy's relationship, despite I didn't always agree with Chase attitudes, I loved seeing his interior struggles, and of course loved the porn-stars was ver
I had to really push to finish this book. I don't think I can recall a book that had so much piled up angst or crappy situations for the MC's. Unfortunately, I felt zero sympathy for the characters & found myself rolling my eyes at several points. For me, one dramatic situation after the other book ended by tears loses its poinancy. I can't empathize for the situations because there isn't any rise and fall. It just feels a bit manipulative for the reader to feel bad for the characters. ...more
Nick Pageant
Sep 11, 2016 Nick Pageant rated it liked it
Shelves: m-m
Since I'm one of the last to read this, I don't need to summarize or discuss the plot. It's very well written because it's Amy Lane. The sex was super hot, the angst was way overdone (Amy Lane). It's definitely worth reading. I took off one star because of a plot twist at the end. I don't usually deduct stars because something makes me angry - making a reader angry has no bearing on quality, but this was just so egregious that I feel vengeful.
Sep 07, 2012 Susan rated it it was ok

2.5 Stars

You know that song "One of these things is not like the other..."? Yeah, that would be me. I know, GR M/M readers, you all LOVED this book. Me, gosh, I had a hard time getting through it.

It's totally an "it's not you, it's me" situation.

"Chase in Shadow" has all the things that should make a good book: romance, emotion, angst, drama...but it just didn't do it for me. Frankly, it was too long, too dragged out, too repetitive (porn scene, girlfriend scene, boyfriend scene, repeat...), a
Kade Boehme
Feb 25, 2012 Kade Boehme rated it it was amazing
Amy Lane is a GODDESS. Chase reminds me WHY I read this genre. Tommy is the reason this genre makes it impossible for men in my life to live up to this genre (clearly I've mental issues of my own). I've been down many of Chase's roads and while it made it achingly painful to read for me, it was also dealt with in a believable way and makes me want to give Amy Lane the biggest hug for understanding. I honestly have nothing other than an emotional review for this. I'm at a loss for words. The ...more
Mar 05, 2012 Mary rated it it was amazing
Shelves: keeper
Chase is a caretaker and it's a wonder that he is. His father was physically, mentally and emotionally abusive. He could have repeated the cycle of pain but instead he turned it all inward but gives the world his best face, his dearest heart. He cares for Mercy, even at the end, even bleeding, he lets her know that her car, the apartment, all taken care of. He could not have given her an easier out, made the transition away from him any easier. Tommy, the love of his life, he makes sure there ...more
♥Laddie♥ (Lee Lee)
Something A Little Different...(In The End A DNF)

ETA 9/11/12:
The decision to DNF this book was a hard one. I tried extremely hard not to feel disgusted with the character of Chase, and for a moment it worked. In the end though I just COULD NOT feel anything but angry with him. The writing in this book is good. Amy Lane has been doing this for a long time and is obviously dedicated to her craft. Unfortunately, the writing, for me, couldn't save this book.

At the beginning of the book I worried abo
A very powerful and emotional read. I had no idea the journey I was going on when I started this book, but it was one filled with unbelievable high and lows, amazing characters and a story that damn near ripped my heart out of my chest.

Slowly the layers are peeled back on Chase’s past as his story progresses in the present, and you can understand why he has chosen to hide behind the image of being straight. The guilt that this boy carried around for most of his life was unimaginable, and the fa
Awilk -never sleeps-
I don't know how to review this book. It was one of the most emotionally powerful books I have read in a very long time.
It took me a while to get into the story, but then it was a case of telling the kids to look after themselves as Mum wasn't stopping until this book was finished.
There was a great cast of characters, with different personalities, who I enjoyed, but Chase was unbelievable. What a heartbreaking lead he was.
All I can say is, if this book is on your tbr, move it up and read it now.
Mar 14, 2014 MLE rated it it was amazing
Shelves: mm, lendle
I went into this book with pretty low expectations, but I was surprised by how much I enjoyed it. It's a hard read. Chase isn't the world's nicest person. He makes decisions that hurt other people, but his actions aren't born out of malice, or any sort of narcissism.

Chase is a deeply damaged, almost broken man. He doesn't want to hurt, or burden anyone. He made a promise to someone he truly cares for, and the thought of breaking that promise, and hurting Mercy is tearing him apart. He doesn't w
Emotional, Honest, Powerful and Real

"Nobody knows the real Chase."

"Chase knows all too well that the only things thriving in a heart’s darkness are the bitter personal demons that love to watch us bleed."




Chase isn't the world's nicest person. He makes decisions that hurt other people, but his actions aren't born out of malice cause Chase is a deeply damaged, almost broken man.
“Chase, where are you when you do that?”
“I’m trying to see myself from the outside.
MsMiz (Tina)
Feb 25, 2012 MsMiz (Tina) rated it really liked it
Shelves: glbt-all, pdf
I wish I had the emotional writing depth to really do reviews justice, but I don't. Here I go trying it anyway!

Amy Lane has such a strong hold on flawed characters and she always delivers them as if you can feel, taste and KNOW them. She gives us this with Chase in Shadow. With that said, this book did not make me break down for days the way I did with A Solid Core of Alpha, but it does pack a punch in line with her other books, such as The Locker Room and Promise books. I would not be sad if w
This book?

First off, the cover doesn't do this book justice. Second off, this book is so great it almost blew up my mind. So great. I laughed, mostly cried, felt bad, felt pissed, felt horribly wronged, wanted to hug everyone, wanted to smack everyone, and had my heart strings pulled.

This is a love story between two (maybe 3) characters who are so beautiful together, but in the most messed up ways. They both have their inner demons, but they're both so lovable. The BEST pa
How to describe this story?


Maybe like this?


An emotional roller coaster, the support beams being damaged and hollow from years of angst and strife. The car representing either one of the damaged gentlemen that are Chase and Tommy (sorry Chance & Tango for you Johnnies' fans). The emotions run so high and drop so low, frantic, frenetic, crazy, lustful, passionate, crazy, insane, so good it hurts, so bad it's good.

T + C together it's electric, baby!

Or like this?


Colorful, blooming, ever c
May 13, 2014 Mona rated it really liked it
Recommended to Mona by: Julia
Shelves: m-m
**3.5 Gave it a Chance Stars**

Starting this book, I thought I'd be doing a lot of this...

But, surprisingly...not so much.

I still enjoyed it though.
Sep 26, 2013 Sara rated it it was amazing
Recommended to Sara by: Natasha
It’s life, Chase. I’m pretty sure you’ve figured out by now that it’s not always pretty.

This book! It. Killed. Me. I am dead. When they find my lifeless body with my Nook clutched to my chest, someone will pick it up, see Chase’s story, read those first words and get sucked in. When they are done, they will die too. Amy Lane’s gorgeous, heartbreaking, soul wrenching, emotionally exhausting and fantastic writing is the gay romance author’s version of the video from The Ring. Read her word
Valentina Heart
Mar 04, 2012 Valentina Heart rated it really liked it
Shelves: glbt, hearts-on-fire
This review was originally written for Hearts on Fire Reviews and can also be found there.

It’s no secret in the publishing world that Amy Lane can write. The topic doesn’t matter, because she will write an angst filled romance with whatever is at hand and just make it shine.

Chase is a young man with so much baggage my heart ached for him. At first glance it might seem as exaggeration, but as you keep on reading, seeing his struggle and his need to be loved and accepted you just have to break do
Wendy Ciliacus
I finally did it !! I've been wanting to read this one for so long...but after reading the reviews..I got a bit scared.

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This one is quite angsty. I've read the second book, which I really loved, so I just put on my big girl panties and jumped in. I'm very glad I did...but...

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I'm exhausted !! But in a good way, because I loved this book !! I'm not gonna do a recap about the story, because there are so many awesome reviews explaining the whole storyline already. I don't think mine is needed.

I am g
Jul 12, 2012 Buggy rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Buggy by: D
Opening line: “Did you have fun?" Mercy asked as Chase negotiated the slick Sacramento streets in the dark."

Wow, what an emotionally draining, yet ultimately amazing read. My first from author Amy Lane but not my last for sure, however it may take a while before I’m up to facing this sort of angst again. Yeah Chase In Shadow is heartbreaking and beautiful and damaged and gorgeous and just such a freaking hot mess, I won’t be forgetting him for a long time to come.

As much as I came to love this
Nov 18, 2014 Amy rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: favorites
As usual with an Amy Lane read, I loved it!!! What an intense and gut-wrenching story! Chase had years and years of emotional baggage waging a war inside his head. He tried to do the right thing, to build the perfect future, to ease some of the guilt he was feeling, but in the end his life was one big lie. Phenomenal writing... present tense mixed with flashbacks and Chase’s internal dialogs. Not to mention some gay-for-pay porn scenes thrown in! Tommy is amazing! Even though he has his own ...more
BWT (Belen)
Here's the thing...I put this series off for a very long time because I knew they did not just have normal Amy Lane Angst, oh no, they have Super Mega Huge Over The Top Amy Lane Angst, and I just wasn't sure whether or not I could handle that level of sustained feeling of deep anxiety or dread.

So like every good coward, I put the series onto my TBR and pretty much left it there. To languish among the hundreds.

Then I saw that Sean Crisden narrated the audio book. It's Sean. I have yet to hear a s
Wah hoo! A bike! Finally a bike AND action figures AND video games and expectations and joy!

Ok, after trying and failing to come up with a review, I will just stick with a rating of 3.5 stars. There are so many others that have done excellent reviews, so I will defer to them. Sad thing is, I agree with both the 5 star reviews and the 2 star reviews. I love me some Amy Lane and I live for angst, but simply put this one was just TOO MUCH for me. For me, it wasn't angsty, it was nerve wracking. It
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