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Mereka Bilang Aku Gila: Memoar Seorang Skizofrenik

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Bunuh dirimu... Bakar tubuhmu... Gantung dirimu. Dunia akan menjadi lebih baik tanpamu. Tidak ada yang baik padamu, tidak ada kebaikan sama sekali.

Suara-suara itu mulai mendatangi Ken ketika usianya empat belas tahun. Alih-alih berusaha mengaku bahwa putranya mengalami gangguan mental yang serius dan mencari perawatan yang tepat, orangtua Ken justru membiarkannya putus sek
Softcover, 436 pages
Published June 2004 by Qanita ( Mizan Group ) (first published January 1st 2001)
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Jun 16, 2008 Jennifer rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: Anyone interested in the truth behind the disease known as schizophrenia
Shelves: greatreads
I remember the night my mother came up to the bedroom my brother shared with me and told me that my uncle, who had been missing for many months, had been found - under the ice in the Fens in downtown boston, close to where he was living at the time. My uncle started hearing voices in his late teens/early twenties, and had been missing or in institutions most of my young life. When we did see him, he was charming, artistically gifted, and quiet. But we did not see him often - only heard that he w ...more
May 01, 2007 Sujata rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: people who work in mental health
if you wanna know what life is like for a schizophrenic and what it was like to try to navigate the mental health system during the second half of the 20th century, this would be a great place to start. a political and thoroughly engaging memoir.
Oct 11, 2014 Jenna rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This book changed my life and the way I look at people who have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, and the mental health system in general. I am currently a bio-medical student at Rutgers studying Psychological rehabilitation and we had to read this book for a literature review paper...but honestly, this assignment ended up becoming so much more to me. This man's book is so devastating, heart breaking, and at times it truly just makes you want to scream. All the lost cries of despair between the ...more
May 25, 2014 Gina rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This is a really important book for several reasons. The first is that it gives a very clear idea of what having schizophrenia is like. That insight is gravely needed for those who have not experienced, and I can imagine it being very helpful for families. Ken Steele tells you what it was like inside his head, and you can follow many periods of progress and setbacks.

The most amazing part is that there is a day when the voices do stop. It's an important reminder that there is hope. Even before t
Nov 25, 2011 Estie rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Ken Steele was a remarkable man and his remarkable story provides a glimpse into the mind and life of someone suffering from schizophrenia. He started hearing voices at age 14 and this book chronicles his descent in a full blown psychotic disorder, his many hospitalizations across the country, and his life on the streets. But aside from painting the picture of a very ill man, this memoir also shows the person beneath the illness - and how his beautiful humanness is always there just beneath the ...more
Ken Steele penulis sekaligus tokoh utama dalam buku ini adalah seorang penderia skizofrenia. tanda umum yag biasanya dapat dijumpai pada penderita skzofrenia adalah adanya halusinasi (baik suara/visual),waham (merasa dirinya besar), kecenderungan bunuh diri, rendah diri, dan biasanya banyak dijumpai pada laki-laki (perempuan juga bisa kok, tergantung jenis skizofrenia, tetapi penyakit ini biasanya diwarsikan ke anak laki-laki).
nah, dalam kisah ini dipaparkan bagaimana masa kecil Ken yang hidup
Apr 25, 2015 Laura rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
A first hand explanation of schizophrenia and how this one fellow coped with it. Very enlightening and at the same time difficult to read. To know someone, and there are many, who suffer from mental disease and are treated in abhorrent ways in this day and age does not speak well for our society.
I kept remembering a school chum. We went to the same schools for over 9 years and were relatively good friends. Suddenly he disappeared from school after freshman year. When we were in our early 20s he
Christine Fay
Jul 11, 2015 Christine Fay rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: memoir, non-fiction
This gripping memoir is a memorable account of Ken’s struggle with schizophrenia and a lack of family support that found him in some unpleasant (to say the least) life circumstances. These voices told him that he was worthless, that he ought to end his life. Someone is born with schizophrenia – it is not something a person chooses. Ken’s voices started at the age of fourteen. His family was in denial and did not get Ken the help he so desperately needed. The voices indeed stopped one day with th ...more
Jun 05, 2013 W rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2013-read
The story of Ken Steele, who from the ages of fourteen to forty-six battled persistent, vicious voices in his head and struggled with finding help for his schizophrenia.

[T]he voices were always waiting in the dark, prepared to take advantage of any opportunity, any slight break in my confidence, when they would take over and aim me toward self-destruction.

This memoir was incredibly intense, the kind of story that you don’t easily forget. Ken Steele’s daily struggles for over three decades brou
Oct 19, 2012 Tara rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
Hard to read, but even harder to stop reading. I hope this book is as intense as it gets in this class, because I'm not sure I could handle much more. Steele hits rock-bottom -- broke, alone, suicidal, schizophrenic--and often turns to alcohol and prostitution in between his frequent stays at mental institutions. His voices do stop eventually, thanks to a new medication, and he dedicates the rest of his life to mental health care reform--how could he not, after the abuse and neglect he suffered ...more
Sydney Miller
Oct 03, 2013 Sydney Miller rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Although people write memoirs all the time, I doubt many people with Schizophrenia could do a better job than Ken Steele. He showed the side of an issue most of us don't get the chance to see, or even know how to connect to. Dealing with Schizophrenia in a time when mental health wasn't at the top of society's priorities is not easy to give insight on to people, and I think he did a magnificent job. Normally in memoirs you would expect the author to have long, choppy, complicated sentences that ...more
Sep 05, 2007 Rini rated it it was amazing
Recommends it for: everyone who like heavy things such schizoprenic, major depresson, personality disorders, etc.
I read this book and it left deep impression inside me. I have been approached by several people that have this illness in a scenario that god have sent to me. I know that they don't lose their abilities to think but they only cannot define which are the realities and which are the delusions. When i saw Hilda's update... it reminds me that i have read this book once. Really an intriguing issues, this schizoprenic things... and since i have read this book my eyes are open wide and never underesti ...more
Sep 09, 2011 Tracy rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Haunting. Firstly because of the trauma of living with voices and hallucinations. Secondly because he became a lost person in the under-belly of our society and was a victim to much of the evil most of us, thankfully, never have to deal with and don't like to think about.

I feel like I understand much better the constant destructive dialogue that goes on in the mind of someone who hears voices. Very sad and quite upsetting section on life in the mental health system during the 1980s. Yet this bo
Joseph Wengerd
I have mixed emotions for this book. The first one hundred pages or so were well-written and paced. Learning about Ken's descent into mental illness was fascinating and heartbreaking. Unfortunately, much of the rest of the book was scattered. For example, there is a heartbreaking story of a nurse who is attacked in a psychiatric ward that really deserved multiple pages but only received a paragraph or two before moving on to something else.
Stacia Mcconnell
Jul 14, 2015 Stacia Mcconnell rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I picked up this book at a book sharing station at the County treatment center. Another amazing story of a life lost and found through the miracle of modern medicine. It gives good insight into the very real and frightening disease of schizophrenia and the mental health system of old. Very good read.
Nov 23, 2014 Cheryl rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Ken Steele describes his 30+ year struggle with schizophrenia and paints a vivid portrait of life bouncing between the streets and halfway houses while giving you a glimpse of the mental health system of the 1960s-90s from a patient's perspective.

I'm not sure I would have liked this book as much if I didn't work in mental health and it is pretty depressing as some other reviewers have pointed out, so don't pick this up if you're looking for a light read. However, this is by far the best of the
Jul 11, 2013 Shaikha rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
What really gets me about this book is that its based on a TRUE story. Ken first heard the voices when he was 14: how he managed them the first time was so...sad. This book was probably the most heartbreaking book I ever read and just frustrating. I had to read his failures with his desire to get his life back together especially when his parents abandoned him.
And the way the book shows how Ken struggles with determining what's real and what's not and how the voices were just part of him. I don
Sep 05, 2014 Alisa rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
I agree with all the positive reviews on here, but I also have to admit that it wasn't well written. It sagged in the middle. I knew he was writing about his experiences and they are valid and significant, but he was also writing a book. And the book become unenjoyable around pg 120.
Also, a lot of shaneless bragging. A lot.
Sep 18, 2007 Menoedh rated it did not like it
Isinya tentang kisah nyata seorang penderita schizophrenia seumur hidup it by yourself.

Nothing much to say, karena jalan ceritanya membosankan. Keluar masuk rumah sakit dan semacamnya, berulang-ulang bilang kalo tiap hari dia ngedengerin suara-suara di kepalanya, turn up being a hustler (tapi gue lupa dia gay atau ngga, atau dia ngga mau ngaku) But just that. Ngga dibuat menarik sama yang nulis, karena the exact word yang dibilang sama suara-suara di kepalanya ngga banyak ditulis a
Apr 30, 2015 Sandie rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: non-fiction
Ken Steele started hearing voices at age 14. For the next 30+ years, he struggled with them, and was in and out of institutions. This is his story. Then the voices stopped. He went on to become a leader in the field of mental health. Amazing.
Asti S
Oct 18, 2014 Asti S rated it really liked it
Abis nonton drama ttg schizophrenia (It's okay, its love), jadi inget buku ini baca pas SMA. Kenal istilah Schizophrenia pertama kali juga dr buku ini. Udah lupa sih jalan ceritanya, tapi entah kenapa berbekas bgt buku ini di otak.
Nicole Nardone
Aug 16, 2007 Nicole Nardone added it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: adults
It was such an intriguing story to me, because my biggest fear in life is not dieing, but going insane (sorry if that's not p.c.). Perhaps because I feel myself on the brink of insanity; therefore Ken Steele's compelling true life story tapped into my personal fears and took me beyond that. Schizophrenia is the ultimate battle of the mind and reality, a battle that many people lose. After years of internal and societal combat Steele overcomees and takes his battle to a national level by encoura ...more
Sep 21, 2015 Rebecca rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This book was just amazing. What this guy went through and then how he turned his life around was so uplifting. It really gives me hope for people with mental illness. I'll definitely be recommending this book to others.
Gabby Harrell
Dec 01, 2012 Gabby Harrell rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
This book was about this guy Ken Steele who had schizophrenia and his take on how he recovered. The book took you along with his crazy journey of being a kid and hearing the voices and all the way to when he was put in a mental hospital.
The book seemed interesting and since I'm intrested in that stuff I decided to read it. I regret that since it had some inappropriate material which I wasn't comfortable with. I mean the book was intresting but the part where he did some questionable things mad
Dec 01, 2009 Mata rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: bookclub09-10
An autobiography by a schizophrenic, starting with when he first started hearing voices at 14, throughout his life in and out of mental hospitals and the streets, to his eventual rehabilitation through therapy and finding the one drug that made the voices in his head stop. I’ve always assumed the mental health system was horrible, but his story is detailed on exactly how dismal it was and why it does not work to help people suffering from mental disorders. Also, on a personal level, I think he d ...more
Mayday (m.i.d.e)
Oct 06, 2014 Mayday (m.i.d.e) rated it liked it
Shelves: not-mine
Buku tentang orang, yang oleh orang sini, akan dianggap orang gila. Buku pertama yang saya baca yang berhubungan dengan gangguan kejiwaan yang membuat saya bisa bersimpati dengan orang-orang yang punya "mental disability" seperti ini.

Institusi tempat dia ditampung kacau, udah mirip juvie atau penjara untuk dewasa lengkap dengan rantai predator. Dibully dan diperkosa pun penjaganya kayak pasrah aja ada yang digituin. Keluar dari institusinya, dia diperalat orang untuk jadi pelacur.

Saat itu umur
Such a great account on the nature of schizophrenia. Chronicles the struggles of navigating society with the stigma of mental illness.
Jan 07, 2016 Steph rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Extremely informative. Very easy to read. Really helps to understand the processes of people with this mental illness.
Justin Hall
Nov 03, 2011 Justin Hall rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I thought this book was well done. It was full of tense and thrilling situations that make you want to read ahead just to find out what happens, but at the same time has you close to tears and full of hope for Kenneth Steele Jr. I think this book would be a great read for anyone who is going through hard times in their life whether it be mental, social, physical, or just any other problem. This book will give hope as you learn about a man's struggle to survive one of the rarest diseases there is ...more
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