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I Loved You First

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My best friend was more than just a best friend to me. Three words summed it up: I heart him. I’d never tell him though. I wasn’t stupid. Besides, what he’d told no one, but me, was a little something I wished I could forget… or ignore. He was gay. I guess gay wouldn’t be bad if I wasn’t so in love with him. Now it was just cruel.

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Paperback, 212 pages
Published July 29th 2011 by Reena Createspace
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Jan 26, 2012 Bex rated it it was amazing
Shelves: first-reads
I won this book in the Goodreads giveaway section (Yay) and I have to say I am glad I entered.

First of all I would like to start off by WARNING potential readers to make sure you have spare time before starting this one because it hooked me in from beginning till the end.

Alexandria (Alex) Carmichael and Seth Richards have been best friends since elementary school, now at College the two are still inseparable Seth is a social butterfly always attending parties. While Seth is good looking and a g
Aug 22, 2011 Shirley rated it it was amazing
I first found out about I Loved You First by Reena Jacobs from a fellow book blogger - aobibliosphere
The description enticed me and after reading the first chapter I was totally hooked.
The story centers around two college freshmen who have been best friends since elementary school, Alex and Seth. Alex is the only person in the world who knows Seth has a secret. Seth is gay and doesn't want anyone to know. Alex has no problem keeping the secret, the only problem is he's not only
Sarika Patkotwar
Nov 24, 2011 Sarika Patkotwar rated it really liked it
I Loved You First by Reena Jacobs is a very sweet read. By that, I mean the story is very different, something that I had not read before and I thouroughly enjoyed every page of it!
The book is a stroy of two best friends, Seth and Alexandria, who have been BFFs since first grade. Alex is deeply in love with her best friend, however, the tiny problem here is that seth is gay. Both of them keep their secrets to themselves. Alex is the only one who knows Seth's secret and Seth realises hers eventu
Jan 07, 2012 Shanan rated it really liked it
Shelves: review-on-blog
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The expectations I had after first reading the description of I Loved You First did not at all prepare me for what I got out of this story. I thought I Loved You First would explore friendship, but it explores more aspects of friendship than I expected. I expected a story where one friend had fallen in love with the other friend and a story where one friend was hiding his true self from the world. I was surprised to see the story explore a friendship where one friend lost her sense
Aug 05, 2012 Andrea rated it really liked it
What a lovely and thoughtful book. I anticipated I Loved You First would be a different type of story. I expected it to be about a girl, helping her best friend as he struggled to be open and accept his sexuality. And there was that aspect to it. But the heart of the story was Alex's path to rediscovering her identity, to remember who she is without the cover of Seth's shadow.

Author Reena Jacobs did a very thorough job of bringing Alex to life. She was a character that I could embrace. She's th
Aug 18, 2011 Sandra rated it liked it
Shelves: nook-books
I don't understand unrequited love at all, probably because I never experienced it. If I liked a guy growing up and he didn't like me back, I got over it and moved on pretty quick. What I especially don't understand is Alex's unrequited love for Seth. She thought that he was awesome, but why couldn't friendship be enough for her? It's not like he was going to have a serious relationship with another woman. That bothered me about this novella, but I admit that maybe I just don't understand becaus ...more
Alexis Villery
Mar 19, 2012 Alexis Villery rated it liked it
Alex has found herself in the most difficult situation of her life. Not only is she in love with her best friend who happens to be gay, but she has allowed herself to disappear in a crowd and she doesn't even know how to stand up for herself anymore. Both Seth and Alex face difficult issue but they've always had each other. This time, it looks like even a best friend can't set things right.

I really enjoyed this book. The premise drew me in and I was not disappointed. Not only is Alex in love wit
Sep 09, 2011 ѦѺ™ rated it really liked it
We have been friends together In sunshine and in shade. - Caroline Sheridan Norton

Alexandria Carmichael and her BFF Seth have known each other since first grade. Alex, though, has fallen in love with Seth over the years and secretly pines for him. it would have been less complicated or perhaps simpler for her to deal with her feelings if Seth were not gay but he is.
author Reena Jacobs has written a beautiful and bittersweet young adult coming-of-age story that deals with friendship, love, bigotr
Sep 19, 2011 Vivian rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
Puppy love, first love, and unrequited love, all seem to be the central theme in I LOVED YOU FIRST by Reena Jacobs.

Alexandra (Alex) and Seth have been best friends since elementary school. They are now both freshmen in college. Alex's entire social life revolves around Seth and his needs. Although Seth has recently revealed to her that he is gay. She vacillates between understanding and accepting that her love will never be returned in a romantic fashion and thinking that she knows what is best
Aug 12, 2011 Lucy rated it really liked it
** I was sent this book by the author for an honest review**

I Loved You First is a novella length love story that had me hooked from the very first page. Alex, a college freshman, has fallen in love with her best friend Seth. It seems like a pretty straight forward romance but for the fact that Seth is gay. Alex is the only person that knows the truth but this doesn’t change her feelings for him. Alex is forced to stand by and watch Seth as he dates a string of girls, while her heart silently br
Leanne Bell
First of all I'd like to say a big thanks to Reena for asking me to review her book and also for asking me to take part in her up-coming blog tour, it's always amazing to be asked to take part in these events.
I have to say, I loved this book and although it's a novella and quite short it tackles a very important issue and with sensitivity, care and has just as much impact as a full length novel would have.

Alex has just started college along with her best friend Seth who she has known since they
Aug 30, 2011 L_manning rated it really liked it
Alex is used to being in the shadow of her best friend Seth. He's out-going and popular. Seth is the kind of guy all the girls fall for, including Alex. There's just one huge problem. Seth is gay. Alex knows this, but no one else does. She is about to learn how hard it is to keep someone's secret, and how hard it is when you fall for the wrong person. Can Alex learn to be her own person and step out of Seth's shadow? Also, can she learn to deal with her feeling about Seth?

This book is a very mod
I enjoy this way more than I anticipated I would. Full review to follow...
Originally posted at Butterfly-o-Meter Books on Jan 24 2012:

Ok, wow!! On all accounts, wow. I dunno where to begin with my fangirlism! xDDD

First things first, I applaud the brave plot the author developed, and I will say I especially applaud her end notes of the novel (at least the way I read them in the ARC), and I cannot speak highly enough of her thoughts and considerations on the topic of the relationship between some Christians and the LGBT community. I subscribe the her points of view and
Paula  Phillips
Sep 28, 2011 Paula Phillips rated it really liked it
Wanting to check out a really good LGBTQ novel ? One that is aimed at Teenagers and in both African and Caucasian Viewpoints ? I Loved You First tells the story of two college students Seth Richards and Alex Carmichael. One is gay and the other straight , One male and the other female , One Black and one White. Alex and Seth have been friends forever and now reaching college-aged Alex is in love with her best friend Seth , though of course she knows that she can never be with him that way and th ...more
Tracey (YA Book Addict)
I Loved You First is the story of Alex and Seth. It's a story of friendship, love, personal struggles and growth. It's a story of getting lost in the shadows of someone else. It's a story of rediscovering the person that you are.

Alex is desperately in love with her best friend Seth. She will do anything for him. Even to the extent of relegating herself to the backburner. But it doesn't matter how much she loves him, or what she does to make him happy. Seth will never return her feelings. For Set
Benjamin Jones
Aug 08, 2011 Benjamin Jones rated it it was amazing
As you can tell by the title of the book, I Loved You First is a story about love and, me being the sucker for romance and love that I am, I was eager to read it when she gave me the opportunity to do so. I'm so glad that I did!!

Straight up, I absolutely LOVED this book. The story of a girl named Alex and her love for her best friend Seth - it sounds so simple at first but the wrench in the plan comes from the fact that Seth is gay. Alex knows this but it doesn't change her feelings even though,
Jennah Scott
Aug 17, 2011 Jennah Scott rated it liked it
First...thank you Reena for the chance to participate in the tour and read I LOVED YOU FIRST. This is a book about love, friendship, and confidence. Alex and Seth are best friends, and yet, neither one really knows themselves. In I LOVED YOU FIRST they have to figure out how to live by themselves and be who they want to be.

Alex has been best friends with Seth since childhood and molded her life around his, to the point that she's in love with him even though she knows he's gay. During her first
Alyssa Archambo Nelson
Aug 23, 2011 Alyssa Archambo Nelson rated it liked it
Shelves: young-adult
Parts of this novel were entertaining, but I was expecting more. I think what affected my enjoyment of I Loved You First was that I didn't like the main character at all. I thought Alex was incredibly selfish and not a very good friend. In the end, she takes a step in the right direction, but considering all that went on throughout the novel, I don't think it was enough. Also, she is supposed to be in love with her best friend, but she never really says what she likes about him except for the fa ...more
Sep 12, 2011 FredTownWard rated it really liked it
NOT the Political Correctness You Were Expecting,

One could be forgiven for assuming this novel would be the worst sort of politically correct garbage based upon the premise: girl secretly in love with her BFF who just happens to be gay -- yeah, yeah, cue the sad violins. However, very much to Ms. Jacobs' credit, it is not. In fact this is a thoughtful (and thought provoking) novel about the timeless problem of unrequited love, its costs, its consequences, and the necessity of finally dealing wit
Mickey Reed
I received this book from the author. Here is my honest review.

The blog tour is coming up, so here's my review for the novella! It is a very quick, easy read. It flows pretty well, too. It wasn't predictable for me, so the whole time I was reading I was never quite sure where the novella was going to take me. I had a couple ideas, but none of them really came about. That was okay, because by the end I suppose I was pretty satisfied.

I have to say, though.. I didn't like the relationship Alex has
Marquetta (LoveToReadForFun)
I normally don't read YA so when the author approached about being part of her blog tour, I figured I'd give it a try. After reading the blurb, I was intrigued. I love stories about unrequited love.

Seth and Alex (Alexandria) have been best friends since elementary school. The novella starts off with both Alex and Seth being freshmen at the same college. Seth is the All-American Boy. He's good looking, excels at baseball and all the girls want him. But he's hiding a secret that only his BFF knows
Christy LoveOfBooks
I Loved You First was a quick and enjoyable book - I really liked it. Alex and Seth are in college and have been bff's since elementary school. At some point in their relationship Alex fell in love with Seth. Unfortunately for Alex, Seth is gay.

I have to say, I love the name Alex for a girl! Love, love, love it! At first I wasn't feeling Alex. I mean, I liked her, but she was so content on being Seth's shadow and following him around like a puppy, and that drives me crazy. However, I liked her
Oct 27, 2012 Jessirae rated it liked it
Shelves: ebooks, for-review
I Loved You First by Reena Jacobs was about a girl in love with her best friend. The problem of this situation? Her best friend is gay. This isn’t your everyday unrequited love story.

Alex - the best friend anyone could have
To be honest, I didn’t quite connect with Alex until later on in the book. I sympathized with her because I know the pain and heartache she felt. To be in love with someone who doesn’t love you back is really hard. I liked Alex’s tough exterior and how she can hide her pain we
Courtney (Fuzzy.Coffee.Books)
Sep 11, 2011 Courtney (Fuzzy.Coffee.Books) rated it really liked it
What I didn't expect when I first started reading was the emotional turmoil that the characters have to face.

What I liked: 1) The concept. I really appreciate unrequited love, because I've had many unrequited crushes in my life. Not any that are as long-lived as Alex's for Seth, but still. I'm totally able to empathize, and it's clear that Miz Jacobs knows how to write those emotions clearly and concisely. 2) Alex 2.0. I liked Alex a lot near the end, when she finally was figuring out what she w
I Loved You First hooked me from the very beginning and never let me down.

Alex really loved her friend Seth. She wanted to be more than friends, but he was gay. Yes, he was still in the closet. He covered up by dating different girls and then dropping them for one reason or another.

Here is a quote from when they were on the motorcycle:

"I took off with a jerk. Seth hated when I did that, but it forced him to grip me even tighter. He scooted forward with his thighs encasing mine, and his groin pre
Michael Burhans
Jul 31, 2012 Michael Burhans rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: young-adult
This book really spoke to me. I suppose it might be because when I was younger I had a good friend who was a lesbian and I had a severe crush on her so i could really identify with the problem our protagonist Alexandria faced. She also had the added burden that they had been best friends since childhood adding to the pain of the unrequited love.

I thought author Reena Jacobs handled her internal conflict with tact, sensitivity, and real pathos, without ever making her pitiful and whiny. Not an
Jamie Kline
Aug 21, 2011 Jamie Kline rated it really liked it
Review: I couldn't wait to read this book! It sounded like a fun, interesting, and probably emotional read; plus, I felt like I could relate to Alex on some level. It happened in high school; instead of the guy being just my best friend though, he was also my boyfriend. I was delighted of course, but I always felt like something was really off about the relationship. We broke up after about a year and I was crushed. Fast forward to a couple of years later, after we had graduated high school, and ...more
Jul 20, 2012 Jen rated it liked it
Shelves: indie-author
Thank you to author Reena Jacobs for this e-book. This was a quick, interesting read that deals with relevant issues. The characters are well developed and I enjoyed the friendship aspect of Alex and Seth's relationship but struggled with her unrelenting feelings for him. When we meet them, they're at the point where she's known for quite sometime, years in fact, that he will never be able to love her the way she wants him too yet she still pines in secret. We don't always fall in love with the ...more
Sara (sarabara081)
Aug 05, 2012 Sara (sarabara081) rated it liked it
You can find more of my reviews at Forever 17 Books!

When I first saw the premise behind I Loved You First, I immediately was intrigued. A story about a girl in love with someone who could never love her back in the same way, an almost forbidden love? I needed to know more!

What I didn’t expect was how the story felt like more than just a heartbreaking ‘love’ story, but instead a coming of age story about a girl, Alex, who was afraid to come out of her shell, meet new people, and separate from wha
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