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Huilend herhaal ik vandaag

3.49 of 5 stars 3.49  ·  rating details  ·  140 ratings  ·  32 reviews
'De eerste keer dat ik mijn vader op zijn mond kuste was met Pasen.' Een beginzin die je meteen in het verhaal gooit. De zestienjarige Susanna begint een relatie met haar vader, zonder dat hij weet wie zij is. Haar moeder vervloekt haar ex die haar opzadelde met twee waardeloze dochters naar wie ze geen seconde omkijkt. Ze vertelt hun dat hun vader niet meer leeft. Susanna ...more
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Published October 2010 by Ailantus (first published 2010)
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Feb 09, 2015 Lady Vigilante (Feifei) marked it as to-read  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Lady Vigilante (Feifei) by: JaHy☝Hold the Fairy Dust
Got this from my chica today...


Thank you!!!!! I can't wait to read this!
Addicted to Books
I need to process what I just read.

5 Marvellous stars for the tragic passion and it reminded me of a heartbreaking book I read 2 years ago "Chained Melody"by Debbie Martin.

It is a fairly short book that moved me and it isnt a book for those offended by taboo or incest.

The book is set in London in the 70s set in London written in the first person POV. The narrator Susie, is an introverted intelligent girl who has grown up pretty much without love and grows up obseseed about her father wanting t
I picked this book up in the library because the cover grabbed my attention and, when I read the back cover copy, I was torn as to whether to take it home. This book deals with the incredibly taboo topic of incest and so I knew it would be a difficult read, but something about the title and the description made me want to read on. So I decided to go with it.

The first thing to say about this book is that the writing is beautiful. Such a sensitive subject could easily become crass, explicit and di
seanat (elka)
Not an easy subject to tackle, I wasn't even sure that I wanted to read it but am so glad that I did.
Susie seeks out the father she never knew and leads him into a sexual relationship without him knowing her true identity.
So much about this book could have gone so wrong but rather than being voyeuristic and sleezy , it was a disturbing and uncomfortable read, yet also incredibly touching and poignant.
Whilst admittedly there is a lot of sexual activity it very much takes second place to Susie's d
Marci -  Serendipitous Readings
Firstly, this is a topic that is quite taboo...I was quite shocked when I go to the point where it is revealed, although, there was a slowish buildup to it. I am divided on the book, I think that some will love it or hate it, depending on your personal values and morals. That being said it was well written, it was just the subject matter that was a bit disturbing.
Nina-Marie Gardner
Deeply disturbing, beautifully written - my kind of book! Loved it, will be haunted by it for weeks to come. Having sickly strange dreams since I first began reading it. If only more books were this intense and affecting. This book is exactly what I have come to expect from the rock stars at Serpent's Tail - their titles rarely disappoint.
I loved it, It was wrong but it was right, It made me cry and laugh and feel what the protagonist was feeling, I actually got into her mindset and understood her reasoning... I'd read it all over again...
Athira (Reading on a Rainy Day)
Fifteen-year old Susanna grew up with a sister who was ready to embrace her sexuality the minute she crossed that threshold and a mother who couldn't care less about what her daughters wanted or did. Her mother didn't have a great opinion of her daughters' father either, who she claimed was a womanizer and who wasn't around much. But Susanna was fascinated with the idea of her absent father. Having grown up on tough or no love, under a mother who is only focused on her own love life with a marri ...more
Susanna is a teenage girl who is obsessed with the father that she has never known. When she schemes up a way in which to meet him, rather than introduce herself as his daughter, she seduces him. Rather obviously, this is not a relationship that is going to end well for either party involved.

This is the kind of book that I knew I wanted to read the moment I read the synopsis. I am a girl with an absent father. I can relate to Susanna’s longing and desperation for a relationship with her father.
In Repeat it Today with Tears, Peile takes the idea of an unloved person’s insatiable longing for love, and exemplifies it to stunning effect.

The person is Susie, a clever but disengaged teenager living in 1970s south-west London. She tracks down her long-absent, artist father, Jack, to a street in Chelsea. He doesn’t know who she is, and she never tells him. She seduces him, and begins a sexual relationship with him.

Susie’s interest in nothing but her father is immensely powerful. She never wa
The novel is divided into two parts. The first half of the book concentrates on Susie's childhood and how she then meets and seduces her father. The second part does not come a surprise to the reader, because by then Susie has already hinted many times at a "the end" of their secret affair. While in part one, she is but a quiet girl who is in desperate need of (parental) love and then goes at it in a way most people would never even contemplate, when the love of her father is taken away from her ...more
Teresa Lukey
WHOA! This book was quite a deviation from what I typically read and although I thought the topic perverse and most definitely taboo, I also think it's good to push myself to have a wide range of reading variety. Without going in to too much detail, I will say that the 16 year-old girl, Susanna, is so hungry for her fathers love that she finds her father, who does not know her, and seduces him. I just kept thinking - No! No! No! What are you thinking Susie? Needless to say the things did not end ...more
Both profoundly disturbing and moving; I am grateful to the author for having such sure hands into which this material and these ideas were entrusted, for it is her sensitivity and brilliance with words which guides this book to the most delicate extremities of the human experience.
Like The Kiss, but fictional and therefore not as shocking (The Kiss, for anyone who doesn't know, is about a woman who has a consensual affair with her father.) Part of what makes The Kiss such an amazing book is that though most of us have not had incestuous affairs, the story is instantly relatable to anyone who grew up with an emotionally manipulative parent, even if their own relationship never crossed that line. But in Repeat It Today with Tears, the father never knows that Susie is his da ...more
If you read one book this Summer, make it this one!

And if you can, get someone else to read it with you. My Mum and I were both enrapt by the character of Susie and enjoyed sharing theories on why she carried out the actions she did. Our insights differed from each other's and we each picked up on things the other had not.

I don't want to put forward any theories as I don't want to spoil it for anyone, but if you have any you'd like to share, please message me with them!
Despite the controversial subject matter, this book was beautifully written & thoroughly beguiling. It's not a long book, but I skipped through it in a couple of sittings.

And despite the main character being a bit of a Lolita, she's still quite likeable. Even though her family are a bunch of misfits!

I was actually gutted when part one ended, especially in the way that it did, but part two was an anticlimax for me and is what prevented me from scoring it 4 stars.
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Anne Peile successfully creates a disturbing character whose actions are at once incomprehensible and pitiful. A story of neglect that leads to an extreme, misplaced desire for affection, the calm attitude of Susie when relating her tale heightens the chilling atmosphere. At times I felt the diaogue was a little stilted, but even with that I found this to be a well-crafted novel, driven by the depth of character that Peile has portrayed.
"I knew, when I sealed this bargain, that I would have to make atonement"

Outstanding! It's amazing how someone's actions can be so wrong, and yet you can understand them. Susie is a unique character; her logic for the decisions she made, was as questionable, as it was appealing. Such a sad but beautifully written story.
dark and sinister book about one of the society's major taboos, incest and the major character susie who trapped her father into an affair without him realising its his own daughter and well written and all the interactions and the breakdown of susi. book is based in 1972 chelsea
Gayla Bassham
Wow. Unputdownable, despite the fact that not a whole lot happens. (But what does happen is pretty intense, so there's that.) The writing is spot-on. I'm docking it a star because I thought the ending was weak, and not wholly plausible. But still highly recommended.
wauw... even een momentje stilte voor de indruk die dit boek heeft achtergelaten.
wat een prachtig verhaal dit boek over susy en haar vader. Een controversieel onderwerp, maar heel mooi klein geschreven. aanrader!
read it in chinese - horrible translation, but the original creativity of the author still shines through - sexy story-telling with experienced stream of consciousness - hard to believe this is a debut novel.
Paula Wadmore
Set in pre-punk London, a teenage girl tracks down her long-lost father and begins a sexual relationship with him. Sounds sensational but it is a strange, sad, beautifully written tale.
Victoria (Eve's Alexandria)
This is it: the first book in my Orange longlist readerthon that has blown me absolutely and completely out of the water. Straight onto my own personal shortlist it goes.
Elizabeth Moffat
Took me a while to get into this book due to the style of writing, but I found it a fast read. Quite harrowing and disturbing through the majority of it.
Jenny Downing
Superbly written. Deals with the taboo of incest (deliberate and unwitting) with sensitivity. A very powerful read.
Scott Morrison
Beautifully written, utterly compelling, finished it off in an afternoon.
It is a difficult one to read but a good book nevertheless...
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Anne Peile was born in London; she has lived in the South West and Belfast and worked as a cook, writing emails for the BBC and in educational support. She works for a London bookstore. Repeat It Today With Tears, her debut novel, was longlisted for the Orange Prize for Fiction 2011.
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