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Actually, I'm Gay

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The day after Colin MacNeill admits to his wife of nine years that he might be gay, he wakes up to find himself alone with his five-year-old autistic son, Kerrigan. It wasn't supposed to work out this way. He and his wife were best friends and his sexuality shouldn't matter. They should still be able to live under the same roof and raise their son together, right? What ...more
ebook, 134 pages
Published January 11th 2011 by Loose Id
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Feb 22, 2011 Enny rated it did not like it
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Cole Riann
Feb 21, 2011 Cole Riann rated it did not like it
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Jan 17, 2011 Lucy rated it really liked it
There is definitely insta-love happening here, and things do happen very fast. In spite of that, I really liked the story. Kerrigan, Colin's son, is autistic and the descriptions of his day to day life showed realism. The hatred shown at times, unfortunately, also seemed real. Beau and Colin have some kinks (public sex, fisting) that work well for the two of them. I had a niggle with how awful Marissa (Kerrigans mom) was portrayed, and yet even that seemed possible, a career woman giving up ...more
May 06, 2014 Arzu rated it it was ok
I liked the plot and the excerpt was so promising, but I was so disappointed. Everything happened too fast. A few more pages and a bit more thinking about the subject would have been required.
The whole coming out, the "I give everything up for my son" (but where were you all the other years? even when you agreed that Marissa would stay home, where were you daddy??) the insta-love, the scandal, the big wedding ... and god, let's not forget fisting on a the hood of a car, out on the road, without
What didn't work:

"You're so wet for me!"
That's an asshole, not a pussy.
A fisting scene outside on the hood of a car.
No condom.
Too much of cliche. Just too much.

And I hope, for the sake of the universe, that this Marissa never have an other child.

What work:

The writer success in making me cheering for them. I wanted them to be happy together.
Apr 13, 2011 Jess rated it liked it
Was pretty Meh!

I had high expectations so I was a bit dissapointed. There was one sex scene on the bonnet of a car that was so freaking stupid and SOOOO unrealistic. I kept wondering 'what was the author thinking'.????

would probably give it 3.5 for the sweetness factor and because the author did alot of research into autism

Tyra Berger
Apr 11, 2012 Tyra Berger rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2011
ACTUALLY, I'M GAY is one of the best books that I have read this year. Roxy Harte wrote a beautiful love story that touched me in ways that I really didn't expect and gave me a whole new appreciation for parents of autistic children.

Colin tells his wife that he doesn't want to have more children with her because he is gay. When he wakes up the next morning, she is gone, leaving not only him but their 4-year-old autistic son. Colin is a corporate lawyer who has been basically absent in the day to
Judy & Marianne from Long and Short Reviews
Love can truly be found in the oddest places. Nothing portrays this fact more than this story about Collin and Beau finding love when neither of them was looking for it, but both of them needed it. Isn’t that how it seems to works? When you least expect something there it is waiting for you to grab.

The emotional development between Collin and Beau was great. They both brought something to the relationship unique to themselves which allowed their love to grow. Beau taught Collin how to care for
Jan 24, 2013 Simon rated it it was ok
Bought this kindle book on the strength of the previous and only review to date. Story starts well. Husband and wife corporate Chigago based lawyers, have a severely autistic son, wife gives up career to care for son. During a domestic row, husband declares he's gay and cannot perform anymore. Wife wanting another, this time "normal" child, takes off leaving child to husband's care. Husband places child in a specialist summer camp, whose CEO also happens to be gay. The husband and Summer Camp ...more
Jan 27, 2013 Macky rated it it was ok
Shame about this book because it sounded so promising. Before I downloaded it, it had two conflicting reviews so it was a chance choice. Unfortunately it turned out to be a bit of a dud. There's a lot going on in it - serious subjects - like single parenting a special needs child ( in this case a little autistic boy ), marriage breakdown, abandonment, divorce, coming out, homophobia, some violence (an attack and a shooting ).....all things that should bring out deep feelings, but sadly I ...more
Aug 18, 2011 Sheila rated it it was amazing
Actually, I'm Gay is an excellent read. When Colin blurts out to his wife he's gay he finds himself alone with his autistic son. Wanting to get him the best care he puts him in a summer camp then spends his weekends there volunteering and falling in love with the camp's director and owner. When scandal breaks over their relationship Colin and Beau have to decide what to do. I liked the realistic approach given to autism and how Colin wanted to be his son's caregiver but knowing he did not have ...more
Mar 14, 2011 Meggie rated it it was ok
The plot of the story was interesting, but everything developed simple to fast. I really didn't feel the characters. Both main couple, Beau and Colin, were interesting and as a couple and well matched, but something just didn't fit. And even the sex scenes were so low key..., Anyway I don't recommend this story on.
Apr 10, 2012 Grandmat rated it really liked it
Interesting story, realistic characters. At first, I didn't like Colin very much, being unattached and distant. But he grew into his responsibilities as a father and found the ability to love. My only criticism is that the ending felt rushed.
May 08, 2013 Bri rated it did not like it
Shelves: glbtq
I just couldn't suspend belief enough to enjoy this story (and I'm usually pretty generous with romance novels). I wanted to like it, the plot had potential, but the execution of said plot just didn't work for me.
Julie Eberhart Painter
This is a very skillful marrying of two important issues. I will put it on my to be read list.

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Mar 14, 2011 Maya rated it it was ok
1.5. Not the worst book that I have ever read but there was very, very little that I did like about this story. Cole Riann's review nailed it!
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Jan 29, 2011 Clover rated it liked it
Shelves: m-m, contemporary
nice story. but the first time was without condom and that's a no-no for me.
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I write erotica, specifically erotica that explores the emotional and psychological elements of relations. DDLG, BDSM, LGBT, POLY.

I'm married to the most wonderful man in the world, have three adult children and two grand children.

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