Dani Alexander's Blog
June 1, 2016
This is gonna be quick and dirty, just how I you like it.
I’m not much further along than I was in the last update, except that I threw out a scene and may or may not get it out of the trash, depending on how obsessed annoyed I get with thinking about it.
It’s summer and the only time, where I live, that the temperature gets above FuckingCold° (that’s 15 for you celsiusers and 60 for you farenheiters). In the summer, I’m even more active than I am in the winter because SUN and BIKE WOOOOOOO. (IE this means several things which are more explained down below in the “Maybe You’ll Like This But Maybe I’m Delusional” section of this post but in this section it just means that it’s tougher to write because, again, SUNWOOOOOBIKEOMG)
WHY DOES WRITE SO HARD? WHY?
I made jam for the first time today from the rhubarb plant in our backyard. Why is this relevant? Because sugarhigh and I felt like sharing that I made some progress with SOMETHING IN MY LIFE.
Okay so that’s where I am.
Here’s where I’m going:(We’ll call this section…
Maybe You’ll Like This or Maybe I’m Delusional in Thinking You’ll Like This but I Don’t Care Because Something is Better Than Nothing.
Or, MYLTMIDTYLTIDCBSBTN™, for short.
Also, I’m dedicating this section to Marleen & Kate cuz they kick my ass and I really need that right now.
Okay so the dedication is mainly an excuse for an excessive number of Hiddleston gifs.
Right! On with MYLTMIDTYLTIDCBSBTN™
I’m live writing vignettes. You can join me for chat or editing or just general commentary. (links incoming after disclaimer)
These will be spoilers for Shattered Glass.
The vignettes are free/unedited/in the process of editing/may never be finished/are exercises to clear the way for NSI and it takes priority
I’m extremely active irl. This means my lack of response is because I’m:
a) at the gym venting my frustration by falling under throwing barbells around
b) I’m eating
c) On a bike ride
d) Food. It’s always probably food.
e) Taking the dog for a walk
d) Playing with the cats (but really, opening peanut butter jar)
e) Cleaning house (Also code for peanut butter)
f) Peeing (most likely reason for being afk other than eating)
g) Out with the hubs doing b, c, but not f because no
i) you know who needs a disclaimer? Skippy. And Nature Valley.
** What my absence/lack of response does not mean:
a) I’m not thinking about writing
b) I’m ignoring you.
c) I”m not eating. I’m probably eating. All the things, but mostly peanut butter.
Sometimes writing will take precedence and I may not answer your chat for awhile even though you know I’m right there cuz you see me typing. This is good. You should encourage this, not be upset that you see me typing and it’s not to you =P
Most of the stuff I’m writing will either be non-spoilery for NSI or there will be a warning for spoilers for NSI
I’m not sure what this bullet point is for, is but I’m reserving the right to add to the disclaimer for…reasons that might apply.
Why are you doing this?
I’m frustrated with certain aspects of NSI and I want to get the characters more in my head
One of the characters needs more fleshing out. I know his story, but it’s not playing in my mind like the rest of the characters
I want to get in the practice of writing every day
I miss interacting with y’all
Hoping this will kick my ass
Why aren’t you writing NSI?
I am, this is literally helping me write NSI (get it? Lit(heh)eral–..I’ll show myself out)
Is this taking time away from writing NSI
No. See above
WHERE IS NSI?
**bangs head against desk** I DUNNO! IT HATES ME. OR CAI HATES ME. OR KARMA HATES ME!
WHAT ABOUT NSI?
I MEAN IT, ANSWER ME, DANI!!!!
Link to Google doc of the day will be on the sidebar of my website http://slashfiction.org
You can chat with me on googlehangouts if you don’t if I learn your google email: email@example.com
You can chat with me on the document itself, but others may be able to see your google user name.
Chat with me on IRC (this is for people who can’t be arsed or don’t want to share their google sign in):
webclient(works in your browser):Go here: https://client00.chat.mibbit.com/
Put in this info:
(email me if you need more info (secure port info etc) and don’t/can’t chat)
android app for irc: https://play.google.com/store/apps/de...
IPhone: No clue, I’d probably go with trillian
I think that’s all…
EEP. THIS IS SCARY.
PS: THE OCD PART OF MY BRAIN IS SO HAPPY WITH ALL THE BULLET POINTS
March 31, 2016
So, remember that guy who once wrote a book? Well, he’s still around. Is he still writing? Yup. If anyone out there is listening still, I am writing!
The nitty gritty: I have three scenes, not chapters, scenes, left in Not So Innocent. Unfortunately, I’ve been stuck on one of those scenes for nearly a month now. I may just scrap it.
Other than that, NSI is completed (but not edited, don’t get excited). I had hoped to finish it by today, but this one scene with Cai is just feeling wrong. Sometimes that means I should scrap it. If I do, I’m gonna guess I’ll finish NSI by the end of April or May. That’s a guess though! It could be June. Who knows!
What I do know is that, hey, I’m travling to the USA in September. I’ll be in Denver from September 1st to the 8th(ish) and then back on the 12th(ish) to the 22nd. I’ll be in Los Angeles around the 8th to the 12th! If anyone wants to meet and hang out, shoot me an email =) firstname.lastname@example.org.
Warning: I’m loud and goofy, I have hair like Yahoo Serious and I’m hyperactive =Pand I’m hyperactive =P
I’ve the beginnings of an outline for Darryl’s book, as well as some written (which may not be included because sometimes inspiration hits, but doesn’t fit the actual story). I don’t expect 4 years between Cai and Darry’ls books =D heh. Ofc, I didn’t expect 4 years between Austin and Cai’s. Apparently, I do not anticipate my own shithole of writer’s block very well.
Another book has been outlining itself in my head.
In other words, I’m doing stuffs and haven’t ded or been deded.
I’m gonna be answering emails and messages that I’ve neglected because of SHAME and DISHONOR and GUILT and GENERAL PROCRASTINATION, which have piled up over the past few months. If you get a random response from me after all this time, don’t be alarmed! =D
Meanwhile, here’s an update on Newb, who only appreciates me when I’m working, thus, that is when cuddle-times happen.
September 1, 2015
This is Newb, our new kitten. Newb is my peace offering for being gone so long. I hope he has made you feel less stabby towards me. He seems to have that effect.
Now, let’s get to updates!
I had a brain fart for most of April and May and June…and some of July. Those months I just couldn’t even look at NSI. During July, I decided to force myself to start writing every day. DIdn’t matter what I wrote or if it was just editing, I had to sit down and work for at least an hour. For some reason, that did the trick. I’d hoped to do the update at the beginning of August, but I didn’t get into a rhythm of writing until about mid-month. Now, I’m writing every day without forcing it. In fact, I’ve been getting to the gym later and later because I wanted to finish whatever I was doing at the time on NSI! This is good news for y’all, it’s not so good news for arm day. I may end up looking like a T Rex but at least my book will be done! That’s all I really have to report on NSI. I wish it was more. I had hoped it’d be more, but at least there’s good news. Right?
The other good news I have is that Sara Alva just published her audiobook for Pura Vida and her narrator is the same guy who did Shattered Glass! =D He’s awesome. It’s awesome. You should check it out. They did a kinda fun interview too.
Simon has found himself in an open relationship for the summer – though not by choice. Instead of wallowing, he’s decided to make the most of a family vacation to Costa Rica by hooking up with the first hot guy available. The trouble is, he has no clue how to go about doing that.
Luckily, he runs into someone with a little more experience. But when the moments of lust turn into something more, Simon isn’t so sure he’ll be able to return to his old relationship. And there’s no way to hold onto this new one, either, as thousands of miles will separate them in only a few short weeks. Either way, he’ll have to learn to let go.
Over the next few days, i’m going to be answering emails and comments that I’ve neglected for the last few months (because I’m an ass and also because I felt so shitty for not having any updates!)
March 2, 2015
I can’t remember when I started reading Stupid Post it Notes. It was a looooooooong time ago. If you haven’t read it, it’s sort of a rambling mess of cracky awesome teenage angst. SPIN, for short, is a slash fiction story about Seth and Tuesday. Yes, Tuesday. That’s his name and I think it says a lot about the story =D. It’s about all I can remember anyway nowadays about it. I can’t even describe what I love/d about it. I just…love it. I’m also someone who rarely reads two types of stories: unfinished ones and YA. SPIN is both of those things.
Way back before trans was something most of us in the slash reading community understood, the author of SPIN was in some kind of kerfuffle about ‘pretending’ to be a guy. I don’t know if that author was/is trans. I can say that I’m now smarter and wouldn’t question such a thing. In fact, I didn’t question it back then either. But a whole lot of other people did and it made the author disappear. I just wanted my story. I wanted my ending. I still, even though I’m subscribed to the story itself, check to see if it’s updated. I mean, I’ll be notified if it is. Fictionpress wouldn’t let me down, would it? GDI I check anyway. All the time. And every time I check, I’m disappointed. And angry. And frustrated. And a little sad.
What I’m saying is, I feel your frustration. I get it. And I don’t blame you one bit.
I’m slow. This process is slow. You have every right to feel frustrated. Angry. Done. Or whatever you feel. The only thing I can do is keep you updated and I’ve been shitty at doing that the last few months. The truth is, I had no news. I have no news now, but I remember just wondering if the author of SPIN had given up. But never quite knowing. I still don’t freaking KNOW! I still hold out hope. Maybe if they’d just come back to say, “I am never working on this again.” or “I need to finish medical school” anything, I would be so happy. (PS: Author, if you’re reading this, I am not saying that I’m entitled to that!)
Now that I read the above, I realize you might be thinking that’s what this post is about. Actually, this post is the opposite of that. I have not given up. I am dedicated to getting this story to you and I will not leave you hanging. I promise. You deserve to not wonder. No limbo for y’all!
For those interested, I can detail what I’m doing atm:
I finally stripped a chapter I was working on after trying to edit it and failing to write one word for nearly two months. That was 3 days ago. Maybe the pressure of knowing I was gonna write this update unblocked me, or maybe tossing that chapter was the trick because I woke up that night at 1:30 in the morning to hand print the scene. It just…came to me. And it works. I have to iron it out more, but it’s the right track. It feels right.
During the two months I didn’t write NSI, I took a deleted chapter from SG and rewrote it. It’s horrible. That’s not just my opinion =D But, I’m going to keep reworking it and see if I can get something to you all. It’ll be a sort of short story about Peter, Darryl and Cai before Austin.
That’s about all the news I have.
My last thing is…about yesterday’s blog post…and that email I sent to, well, you know who you are…and the other person who got my chat messages: Sorry!
March 1, 2015
I’m really really REALLY not in the place to make an update today. I’d planned on doing it, but apparently, Ambian x 2 was a little faster-acting than I thought. The wine, I’m guessing, didn’t help. It’s taken me 39 minutes to string these babbles
sentences together. Even thought I might do a vlog of it. We’ll see. The hair today was **slicks back the bangs**
*then falls off chair**
It was good. I’m gonna faceplant on the bed now. KK bai.
Update tomorrow. **nod** And also I’ll answer all the emails and stuff I’ve let back up!
December 25, 2014
I hope youre all having a lovely holiday season!
I’m celebrating by editing and reading about bullet trajectories and wounds! It’s oddly compelling research!
What awesome books are y’all reading? And what books did you get for Christmas and Chanukah?
November 4, 2014
No, I’m sorry, this isn’t about NSI, which i’m totally writing 100% of the day except this post.
I’ve ignored a website in the past because, back when they first started their “campaign”, I figured a) the deluded doxxing of reviewers was an anomaly and, b) hey, let’s not give them any exposure. Boy, was I wrong. Doxxing of readers/writers/reviewers/book bloggers etc. is apparently a thing. Not only doxxing, but stalking! And conking people with wine bottles after FLYING TO ANOTHER COUNTRY TO STALK THEM AT A GROCERY STORE! Wholly shit. We have some deluded people out there.
This post is about privacy, how to protect yours. Who knows, maybe I’ll save someone from getting conked on the noggin by a deluded idiot who shouldn’t be allowed on the internet, let alone near humans.
I’m going to address tips that I believe are specifically helpful in our communities, as well as a few general ways to remain private.
1. On Facebook with your real life information? If possible, keep your reviewer/author accounts on places like Goodreads and Booklikes separate and anonymous. You can still share your love of a book, you can still talk about your favorite authors, but keeping your real life name away from those accounts could, in the long run, be beneficial. Something to think about.
2. When you comment on a website, try and use a proxy server or a VPN (virtual private network). Proxy.org is a good place to start, but you can also download the tor browser and use that. https://www.torproject.org/projects/t... Why do I recommend that? Because you can be doxxed (traced/outed) through your IP address. A determined stalker will find you that way. Remember that when you click on a link from twitter/blogs/facebook and you enter someone else’s website, they get your IP address, your location, your browser and all kinds of info.
3. When leaving comments, have a specific account set up for just that purpose and keep it separate from your real life information. Different email address, different username, different everything.
4. If something requires you to login to your Facebook account in order to comment, RUN.
5. Keep every single bit of information if someone stalks you or tracks you. Screenshot it, keep the screenshots and copies of the interaction on a cloud account. Make sure you document everything, even if it’s just one incident. You don’t know when things might escalate.
I’m hoping that some of these tips help y’all. I also hope that none of you actually ever ever ever need them. 99.9% of us out there have zero interest in stalking or finding anything about people other than what they want to tell us. But hey, if there’s 100,000 people out there in our little community, the .1% who are creepy and stalkery doesn’t seem like such a small number, does it?
Stay safe, peeples!
PS: I’M WRITING I’M WRITING!
PPS: If you have any other tips for people, please leave them in the comments (anonymously, ofc =D)
November 1, 2014
I suck. I’m sorry, but I don’t have any really awesome news. Not really bad news either, but not awesome.
I let NSI rest for two weeks so I could get fresh eyes on it. When I returned to edit, I stripped most of the one whole chapter and a lot of the others toward the end. Since doing that, I’ve had approximately zero inspiration and been totally dejected about it. Yesterday, I picked up the pen again (literally), so I’d get some inspiration. It worked and I wrote longhand about five hundred words of the chapter I had stripped. I also found out that I didn’t need to strip the whole thing and a lot of it was salvageable. Yay? That’s about all the news on writing that I have. I’m sorry it’s not better. What I think and hope is that I’ll have a release date by the end of this month. That’s my goal. Wish me luck.
Oh and hey, one of my closest friends has released a book. You don’t see me tout books often, and I’m honest about them when I do. So I’ll say I haven’t read it, but, if sci-fi het is your thing, he’s a funny dude. He used to make me spit my drink out all the time when we lived together. He also had an insane imagination and was one of the coolest most awesome people when I came out, so he has all the points. ALL OF THEM! (I haven’t read his book because (I’m a shitty friend) I’ve cut myself off from everything including: social media, reading, and even television (RIP my plans for arrow/flash slash =-( )
PS: A lot of you message/d me on facebook, goodreads and twitter etc, I’m just getting around to reading/responding to those today, but know that when I read them and your emails, my spirits buoy and I get ten times the inspiration. Please, feel free to contact me/message me/email me/yell at me any time you want. If i’m late responding, it’s probably because I’ve cut myself off in order to write. I’m extremely easily distracted by pretties.
edit: Oh yah, my cover for Silent has made it to another round. Only thirty covers left out of I dunno how many hundred started. I’m really excited! You can vote here: http://www.elisarolle.com/rainbowawards/covers.php Mine is number 398!
September 19, 2014
I wish I could think of something clever and funny atm, but my mind is filled with cotton–or snot that’s dried like cotton around my brain. So, today’s update brought to you by The Gross Unfunny Dani.
I could have updated on the first, except I broke my foot. And after hospital visits and xrays, I thought I’d give it a few days and then write the post. What happened? The EVIL COLD OF DEATH AND DESTRUCTION™. The worst cold in the history of colds struck me and my husband at the same time.
I am NOT good at sick. I whine and bitch and moan and so I tend to just shut down and talk to zero people. My entire family and friends have been like “ZOMG ARE YOU OKAY?” because I just haven’t responded to anything with email, twitter, facebook etc. To those of you who worried, I’m sorry. If you want groveling, I’ll hock a loogie on you big enough to use in a horror film.
Meanwhile, I have a ton of news. I finished NSI, but I haven’t done any editing since I did that on the 2nd of Sept. No idea how much editing I have to do, but after looking at one chapter today, it’s a lot. A LOT. I’ll probably have more info when I get a chance to read the last four chapters I wrote. Next things I need to do: edit, send to beta, compile in scrivener for a word count, edit some more, sent to other beta, edit edit some more =p.
My cover for Sara Alva’s Silent has been nominated for the cover awards. It’s Rainbow Awards cover contest–the cover is #398 You can vote here: http://reviews-and-ramblings.dreamwid... by replying to the post or on the livejournal page, if you have an LJ account.
Not so much my news, but Sara Alva’s Social Skills is out on audiobook! http://www.amazon.com/Social-Skills/d... If you’re wondering why I’m announcing this here: For those of you that don’t know, I became friends with Sara because of Social Skills. I stalked emailed her after I read it and fanboi’d all over her face. For some reason, she didn’t take a restraining order out on me and we’ve been friends ever since.
That’s your update for today. Hope your fall is going terrific! For the rest of the day, I’m on a search for my lungs. I think they’re under the sofa along with two boxes of Kleenex.
August 1, 2014
I know. I’m a bad person who didn’t update last month. There’s a reason for that and the reason is: I didn’t want to. =P
Okay, that’s too simplistic. The reason was, it was bad news. I hate bad news (even though it makes me look at porn, which is a good result of bad news). Anyway, last month I’d hoped to give you good news, but I had gotten nowhere with the chapter and it would have just been a big whine (I’m going to whine anyway, but you might enjoy that whine (with some cheese and crackers?)). Well, this month is a different story. Because during the whinefest of July, I actually got three chapters written. Yes, THREE. ANd if you’re counting (which you should be, because what else have you got to do besides read my amazing updates, gdi!), that means I have one chapter and an epilogue left! That’s right. NSI has one chapter and one epilogue left! YOU HEARD ME. I should be finishing both of those this month. I’m even going away this weekend to the boonies (I already live in the boonies but this is WAYY in the boonies) with shitty internet and the hub’s family so I can’t even look at porn.
I’m doing this for you! (and also because his family is awesome and I like them, but still) FOR YOU!
At the end of this month, I should have the completely self-edited version to my beta. Then I take her notes, turn the book inside out, send it back to her AND another beta and then, an editor.
I need a new editor. I took so long with this book, my other editor has been unable to take the project. I’m very very very very VERY picky about editors, so this is a tough one for me =( Once I have an editor who gives me their availabilty, I’ll probably be able to give a release date =D \o/! Are you excited? I’m EXCITED!
Next up, an apology for not answering email and keeping up with social media recently. I’ve been trying to focus all energy on writing NSI. I hope that I haven’t caused anyone to feel neglected or that I’m rude or don’t care about the letters you send. There isn’t a single time that someone has sent me a letter/made a comment/tweeted, that I haven’t been The Boy That Squees. Every. Single. Time. I thank you all wholeheartedly for any time you take to comment/email/tweet/facebook etc
Now. Warning, what follows is long, boring and includes lots of swearing-filled rant. If you don’t give a shit about Microsoft Word, here are guys kissing.
Microsoft 2013 is like the Citarum River. Just a bunch of shit that was once useful and now you have to navigate around the shit to get anywhere.
Let me start by what it looks like (spoiler alert: unedited shitty screenshot from NSI =P)
This is a screenshot from Word 2013. Note the BRIGHT FUCKING RIDICULOUSNESS OF THE LAYOUT? That! THAT is as dark as you can get it. That’s right. There’s this shit as a choice or: blindingly white OR The CEO of MICROSOFT’s ORDER THAT WORD GIVE YOU A TAN white.
Along with the inability to darken the layout, it also asks for a password alllll the time. And, because whoever programmed it did a shitty job, instead of asking for a password where it’s supposed to, it just says IT’S BROKEN. “REPAIRS’ it and SHUTS THE FUCK DOWN. Then you reopen it and it says “THIS COPY IS PIRATED(or another message that basically means that =P)” and so you have to shut it down a THIRD time to get to the login screen. Every. GD. TIME. you open it this happens.
They’ve apparently stopped hiring programmers with any skill at Microsoft and have decided to troll anyone who used to love Word.
As a bonus to the shit I just pointed out, there are constant bugs which, when reported to Microsoft’s help page forums, NO ONE from Microsoft helps. Eight pages of a bug where you couldn’t open word from the 24th to the 27th of July. eight pages of office staff/business owners complaining that they couldn’t open it. Not one word from Microsoft. (turned out it was a java update, which ~I~ figured out on my own). This isn’t the first time I’ve noticed that people’s problems go ignored on THEIR HELP FORUMS. It’s a HELP. FORUM. FOR HELP. (Go check. You’ll want to find a picture of the Microsoft CEO and tape it up to your dartboard after)
Don’t buy this program. Just don’t. Go get LibreOffice or Open Office. Try Google Docs. Hell, I hate Mac and I”m recommending any mac program that lets you avoid Microsoft office!
That’s the end of my rant.
As usual, leave your questions below and I promise to answer when I can!