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May 25, 2012
To be released in 2012 by Hollace M. Metzger and Christina Westover, here is an excerpt from the self-help book "10 Gifts To Give Yourself For A Successful Life."
"Allowing Yourself To Be Happy
“What we call the secret of happiness is no more a secret than our willingness to choose life.”~Leo Buscaglia
Sought after with an insatiable appetite, happiness is one of the most elusive dreams mankind has ever known. Some have traveled to the corners of the earth in search of treasures, experiences and themselves. From fame and fortune to love and power, history has proven that the pursuit of inner contentment is something many individuals are willing to die for.
What exactly is happiness? Characterized by a general feeling of well-being and contentedness, happiness is an individual pursuit which fulfills those inner longings we all have. Women’s Rights advocate Susan B. Anthony called “independence” happiness, while Franklin D. Roosevelt said it was through “achievement” and “creative effort” that one found happiness. I believe Aristotle cut to the heart of the matter by speaking of happiness as depending on “ourselves.” One thing is true of happiness, it is a complex concept which is defined on completely personal terms. No one else can tell you what happiness is for you.
What does happiness mean to you? What do you feel will enrich your life? What gives your life meaning? What makes you feel confident, strong, loved, unique, respected, understood, or connected to others? Important questions to ask, since you cannot work toward specific goals if you are not aware of what you are striving for, and the possibilities which these goals will provide.
The purpose of this book is to help readers simplify their lives by offering suggestions to improve stress-reduction, personal nurturing, and to build the confidence to keep pushing forward toward the manifestation of one’s dreams. Through the use of visualization techniques, affirmations for changing one’s inner dialogue, and music suggestions for emotional growth, this book is an aid to help awaken the artistic passion within us all—passion which may be used to sustain and realize lucrative ideas. It is a book written to help strengthen the core of one’s emotional outlook on life. It is meant to help each reader to take better care of himself or herself—If you are strong enough to care for yourself, you will be strong enough to help others to be strong for themselves. It is a gift which will affect all who come into contact with you, a gift which will affect the lives of people you do not even know. The foundation of this gift is LOVE, love which is infinite and expansive. Please, accept this book as a personal gift to you—learn to not just survive this life, but to enjoy living it. When you learn to live, the future becomes a dream to be embraced, explored, and refined.
The beginning of nurturing oneself is allowing yourself to be happy. What is happiness measured by? What if you have tried pursuing happiness only to hit progress halting roadblocks along the way? What are some practical steps you may take to reach your personal goal of happiness? These questions and more will be answered in this book.
Measuring Happiness
Many of us have moments in life which we look back on with fondness—moments which have become the epitome of pleasure against which we evaluate other good times in our lives. For me, some of those moments would be time spent with my grandmother or daughters, being in love, holding a copy of my first published book. They’re the sort of memories which never fade or lose their magic. I have only to remember an experience, and it suddenly comes alive within me again. Bringing with it powerful emotions of bliss, a happy memory may trigger chemical reactions in the brain which can change one on a deeply physical level.
The amazing thing about happiness, is that it surpasses the limits which science has attempted to impose upon it. It is simply not definable by one’s mental state of mind alone, since it also encompasses the physical, emotional, and even spiritual well-being of the individual. Each individual is the judge of his or her own level of happiness, and no one else except you will be able to decide when you have reached the level of contentment which makes you feel rich inside.
As simple as it sounds, deciding when you have reached a level of contentment which satisfies you is a complicated matter. You may have a different way of measuring happiness for different areas of your life—business, relationships (familial, romantic, friendships, etc.), creative endeavors, money, health, or whatever else it is which involves your happiness. One thing to remember always is, you are the authority on what happiness means to you, and how it is to be measured. Being a good judge of measuring your own happiness will require learning about yourself, trusting in your decisions, and taking responsibility for those decisions with your eyes wide open.
For instance, while I take great joy in being a published author, I will not feel entirely content with my literary success until I have won the Pulitzer Prize for literature. Until I reach that point in my career, I continue to work toward this goal by sharing my emotions and thoughts through writing what I love, making it public, and connecting with other creative individuals. In this way, my dream continues to gain momentum while my life continues to grow rich with the new experiences and people which art brings into my life.
However, as I continue to progress toward this creative goal, I am careful to celebrate the small successes along the way. For me, a part of measuring happiness means being able to look at past accomplishments to see how far I have come--from writing stories in a notebook and dreaming of one day being published, to grander and much more expansive goals. It is by chipping away at what may seem like an overwhelming goal that it becomes accessible. Remove the mountain from before your eyes, and each stone becomes a point at which to further yourself and climb higher. With each accomplishment comes knowledge, wisdom, and experience which will give you the confidence and perseverance needed to reach the next stone."
This self-help book combines psychology and ART on EVERY LEVEL in order to help readers release and connect to emotions. Look for it this year!
"Allowing Yourself To Be Happy
“What we call the secret of happiness is no more a secret than our willingness to choose life.”~Leo Buscaglia
Sought after with an insatiable appetite, happiness is one of the most elusive dreams mankind has ever known. Some have traveled to the corners of the earth in search of treasures, experiences and themselves. From fame and fortune to love and power, history has proven that the pursuit of inner contentment is something many individuals are willing to die for.
What exactly is happiness? Characterized by a general feeling of well-being and contentedness, happiness is an individual pursuit which fulfills those inner longings we all have. Women’s Rights advocate Susan B. Anthony called “independence” happiness, while Franklin D. Roosevelt said it was through “achievement” and “creative effort” that one found happiness. I believe Aristotle cut to the heart of the matter by speaking of happiness as depending on “ourselves.” One thing is true of happiness, it is a complex concept which is defined on completely personal terms. No one else can tell you what happiness is for you.
What does happiness mean to you? What do you feel will enrich your life? What gives your life meaning? What makes you feel confident, strong, loved, unique, respected, understood, or connected to others? Important questions to ask, since you cannot work toward specific goals if you are not aware of what you are striving for, and the possibilities which these goals will provide.
The purpose of this book is to help readers simplify their lives by offering suggestions to improve stress-reduction, personal nurturing, and to build the confidence to keep pushing forward toward the manifestation of one’s dreams. Through the use of visualization techniques, affirmations for changing one’s inner dialogue, and music suggestions for emotional growth, this book is an aid to help awaken the artistic passion within us all—passion which may be used to sustain and realize lucrative ideas. It is a book written to help strengthen the core of one’s emotional outlook on life. It is meant to help each reader to take better care of himself or herself—If you are strong enough to care for yourself, you will be strong enough to help others to be strong for themselves. It is a gift which will affect all who come into contact with you, a gift which will affect the lives of people you do not even know. The foundation of this gift is LOVE, love which is infinite and expansive. Please, accept this book as a personal gift to you—learn to not just survive this life, but to enjoy living it. When you learn to live, the future becomes a dream to be embraced, explored, and refined.
The beginning of nurturing oneself is allowing yourself to be happy. What is happiness measured by? What if you have tried pursuing happiness only to hit progress halting roadblocks along the way? What are some practical steps you may take to reach your personal goal of happiness? These questions and more will be answered in this book.
Measuring Happiness
Many of us have moments in life which we look back on with fondness—moments which have become the epitome of pleasure against which we evaluate other good times in our lives. For me, some of those moments would be time spent with my grandmother or daughters, being in love, holding a copy of my first published book. They’re the sort of memories which never fade or lose their magic. I have only to remember an experience, and it suddenly comes alive within me again. Bringing with it powerful emotions of bliss, a happy memory may trigger chemical reactions in the brain which can change one on a deeply physical level.
The amazing thing about happiness, is that it surpasses the limits which science has attempted to impose upon it. It is simply not definable by one’s mental state of mind alone, since it also encompasses the physical, emotional, and even spiritual well-being of the individual. Each individual is the judge of his or her own level of happiness, and no one else except you will be able to decide when you have reached the level of contentment which makes you feel rich inside.
As simple as it sounds, deciding when you have reached a level of contentment which satisfies you is a complicated matter. You may have a different way of measuring happiness for different areas of your life—business, relationships (familial, romantic, friendships, etc.), creative endeavors, money, health, or whatever else it is which involves your happiness. One thing to remember always is, you are the authority on what happiness means to you, and how it is to be measured. Being a good judge of measuring your own happiness will require learning about yourself, trusting in your decisions, and taking responsibility for those decisions with your eyes wide open.
For instance, while I take great joy in being a published author, I will not feel entirely content with my literary success until I have won the Pulitzer Prize for literature. Until I reach that point in my career, I continue to work toward this goal by sharing my emotions and thoughts through writing what I love, making it public, and connecting with other creative individuals. In this way, my dream continues to gain momentum while my life continues to grow rich with the new experiences and people which art brings into my life.
However, as I continue to progress toward this creative goal, I am careful to celebrate the small successes along the way. For me, a part of measuring happiness means being able to look at past accomplishments to see how far I have come--from writing stories in a notebook and dreaming of one day being published, to grander and much more expansive goals. It is by chipping away at what may seem like an overwhelming goal that it becomes accessible. Remove the mountain from before your eyes, and each stone becomes a point at which to further yourself and climb higher. With each accomplishment comes knowledge, wisdom, and experience which will give you the confidence and perseverance needed to reach the next stone."
This self-help book combines psychology and ART on EVERY LEVEL in order to help readers release and connect to emotions. Look for it this year!
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Published on May 25, 2012 14:35
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May 15, 2012
For those who are just now joining the 2012 Art Renaissance, this is a REMINDER of what the Renaissance is about. Hollace M Metzger started this Art Renaissance with the goal of making it the best since Leonardo Da Vinci's time. Through ART we SHARE emotions, and this connects us to other people, to humanity There are NO POLITICAL or RELIGIOUS AGENDAS--this is ART ONLY. We are hoping those participating will discover their HIDDEN artistic abilities and make an effort to produce MORE art in a CONCENTRATED amount of time. You'll be amazed at how much more fun life is when you allow your CREATIVITY to flow...when you take the time to indulge your own imagination. My own personal goal is making a mosaic on my kitchen table, something I've always wanted to do. I've promised myself I will start searching for the materials this weekend! Happy creating to EVERYONE! Thank you so very much for joining us and for supporting the ARTS! Remember to publicly show your support for Hollace M Metzger's art work, including her poetry/collaborations, and upcoming MUSIC!Check us out on Facebook under our profiles!
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Published on May 15, 2012 17:18
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May 4, 2012
If there is one factor which will help you to bring your dreams into the world and watch them materialize, it is changing your inner dialogue. Through the use of tools such as music suggestions, affirmations, and visualizations, readers will learn to change self-limiting behaviors by giving themselves the personal nurturing and encouragement needed to pursue their goals. Music suggestions will help readers to connect with emotions and memories in need of release, affirmations are used to teach a more compassionate inner dialogue, while visualizations will aid readers in focusing and creating the life they dream for themselves.
10 Gifts To Give Yourself For A Successful Life is a self-help book which will not only help to awaken the artistic passion in readers, but will help to strengthen the emotional and mental core of each person using the suggested tools to improve his or her life. The stronger our emotional foundation is, the stronger we are for those who need our nurturing and help. It is a book of expansive ideas--ideas which will affect all who come into contact with you. Learn to love yourself, and loving others will happen on its own! The first collaboration between architect and multi-artist Hollace M. Metzger and San Francisco novelist Christina Westover, 10 Gifts To Give Yourself For A Successful Life, is a self-help book which will help readers to not just shoot for the stars, but to reach them!
Here are some of the chapter titles to give you an idea of what is in store:
Chapter One: Allowing Yourself To Be Happy
Chapter Two: Emotionally And Energetically Cutting People Off When Necessary
Chapter Three: Allowing Others To Help Us When We Need It
Chapter Four: Paying Attention To Your Unique Gifts And Using Them To Further Your Goals
Chapter Five: Setting The Standard Of Your Own Worth
Chapter Six: Moving Forward Without Clinging To The Past
Chapter Seven: Being Compassionate To Yourself And Others
Chapter Eight: Understanding And Accepting That No One Has All Of The Answers
Chapter Nine: Taking Risks When It Is The Right Thing To Do
Chapter Ten: Learning Who You Are, Accepting Yourself, Liking Yourself
Look for it in 2012!
10 Gifts To Give Yourself For A Successful Life is a self-help book which will not only help to awaken the artistic passion in readers, but will help to strengthen the emotional and mental core of each person using the suggested tools to improve his or her life. The stronger our emotional foundation is, the stronger we are for those who need our nurturing and help. It is a book of expansive ideas--ideas which will affect all who come into contact with you. Learn to love yourself, and loving others will happen on its own! The first collaboration between architect and multi-artist Hollace M. Metzger and San Francisco novelist Christina Westover, 10 Gifts To Give Yourself For A Successful Life, is a self-help book which will help readers to not just shoot for the stars, but to reach them!
Here are some of the chapter titles to give you an idea of what is in store:
Chapter One: Allowing Yourself To Be Happy
Chapter Two: Emotionally And Energetically Cutting People Off When Necessary
Chapter Three: Allowing Others To Help Us When We Need It
Chapter Four: Paying Attention To Your Unique Gifts And Using Them To Further Your Goals
Chapter Five: Setting The Standard Of Your Own Worth
Chapter Six: Moving Forward Without Clinging To The Past
Chapter Seven: Being Compassionate To Yourself And Others
Chapter Eight: Understanding And Accepting That No One Has All Of The Answers
Chapter Nine: Taking Risks When It Is The Right Thing To Do
Chapter Ten: Learning Who You Are, Accepting Yourself, Liking Yourself
Look for it in 2012!
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Published on May 04, 2012 18:38
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April 29, 2012
There has been so much written about Kurt Cobain--so much that writing an outline of a biography on him would be a waste of time. So, I'm going to tell you how I FEEL about Kurt Cobain and his art.
First of all, Kurt Cobain was born on February 20, 1967 in Aberdeen Washington. I've always felt he and I were much alike, having been raised partly in single parent homes. Like Cobain, my parents' divorce was difficult on many levels, as it changes you as a person.
I was 18 when I first heard "Smells Like Teen Spirit." I remember watching MTV and being just blown away by this force in his music which made me think--"Yes!!! THIS is what art was meant for, what it will always be for...to tell people how life really is without having to worry about hurting everyone's feelings all of the time. It is meant to express your deepest emotions without directing it at others, even when they might deserve it."
There are so many things which Kurt Cobain said and did which I felt mirrored precisely what I wished I could say aloud. It isn't always easy, especially if you tend to be somewhat passive and sensitive and have a difficult time with confrontation. It is no secret there was anger in his art, in his words--so much pent up emotion which was so perfectly expressed through his work.
Some of the things I liked most about Kurt's words is that he had a true respect for women, children and animals. He believed women were the "future" of rock, and I wholeheartedly agree. If women and men showed more aggression through art instead of at each other, maybe the whole world would be a better place to live. Kurt publicly shared his emotions--something which I think is outstanding in a world in which people hide behind illusions.
I also liked how unlimited his art was. He BREATHED art. Not only was he visually talented--evidenced through his photography and videos, but he understood the use of the right words with the perfect music/visual combination. I personally think it fitting that he considered "All Apologies" his tribute to The Beatles--a band with truly unlimited potential, whose music threw boundaries and genres to the wind.
Most of all, I love Kurt Cobain's PASSION. Unequivocal and boundless, his passion has inspired many songs, books, etc. If you're going to live as an artist in a world which will persecute those who are different, you'd better be able to do a damned fine job in order to get your messages across. With all my heart, I believe he did this.
So, there you have it. How I FEEL about Kurt Cobain, a man who inspired my book "Precipice."
First of all, Kurt Cobain was born on February 20, 1967 in Aberdeen Washington. I've always felt he and I were much alike, having been raised partly in single parent homes. Like Cobain, my parents' divorce was difficult on many levels, as it changes you as a person.
I was 18 when I first heard "Smells Like Teen Spirit." I remember watching MTV and being just blown away by this force in his music which made me think--"Yes!!! THIS is what art was meant for, what it will always be for...to tell people how life really is without having to worry about hurting everyone's feelings all of the time. It is meant to express your deepest emotions without directing it at others, even when they might deserve it."
There are so many things which Kurt Cobain said and did which I felt mirrored precisely what I wished I could say aloud. It isn't always easy, especially if you tend to be somewhat passive and sensitive and have a difficult time with confrontation. It is no secret there was anger in his art, in his words--so much pent up emotion which was so perfectly expressed through his work.
Some of the things I liked most about Kurt's words is that he had a true respect for women, children and animals. He believed women were the "future" of rock, and I wholeheartedly agree. If women and men showed more aggression through art instead of at each other, maybe the whole world would be a better place to live. Kurt publicly shared his emotions--something which I think is outstanding in a world in which people hide behind illusions.
I also liked how unlimited his art was. He BREATHED art. Not only was he visually talented--evidenced through his photography and videos, but he understood the use of the right words with the perfect music/visual combination. I personally think it fitting that he considered "All Apologies" his tribute to The Beatles--a band with truly unlimited potential, whose music threw boundaries and genres to the wind.
Most of all, I love Kurt Cobain's PASSION. Unequivocal and boundless, his passion has inspired many songs, books, etc. If you're going to live as an artist in a world which will persecute those who are different, you'd better be able to do a damned fine job in order to get your messages across. With all my heart, I believe he did this.
So, there you have it. How I FEEL about Kurt Cobain, a man who inspired my book "Precipice."
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Published on April 29, 2012 19:08
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April 12, 2012
Today, I received a gift in the form of a poem. It is personal and honest, because it comes from my daughter Madison. I have two daughters, for whom my novel "Poisoning Sylvie" was written. Just as in my novel, there are two sisters who have had to grow up without a mother in their lives--two sisters who have had a difficult time because they had a mother who was Bipolar and not always well. While I have custody of them each summer, in the past twelve years I have seen my daughters for a total of 12 months. It is heartbreaking, but I still know it was the right choice to make.While I regret having limitations, I am happier knowing they did not grow up having to mother me--I sacrificed living with them so that they would have a childhood uncomplicated with adult worries.
I am writing this for all of those parents out there in similar circumstances. Parents, who for whatever reasons are not able to have full-time custody of children they adore. When you truly love someone, you love them above and beyond your own wants and desires--unconditionally and unselfishly. I am proud to say my daughters are fine young women who know that I love them and cherish them and that I put them above myself.
All any of us can do in this world is live honestly and with a self-integrity which can never be taken from us. I wish everyone reading this so much love and compassion, and I hope that if you've had to make similar sacrifices, that you hold your head up proudly, because you've done a fine thing toward another human being.
Here is Madison's poem:
"To Mom
Without judgment
Selfless love you showed
Despite inner pain you felt
You made the better choice
Not always in the flesh
Displayed love nonetheless
Showing you always care
Even though you can’t be here
You help to always make the best
Even when put to test
Few people could do what you do
Don’t think you’re weak
Because I believe in you
To the one dearest in my heart
One who understands my thoughts
To the one who believes in dreamers
I’m proud to call you my mother
I love you!"
I am writing this for all of those parents out there in similar circumstances. Parents, who for whatever reasons are not able to have full-time custody of children they adore. When you truly love someone, you love them above and beyond your own wants and desires--unconditionally and unselfishly. I am proud to say my daughters are fine young women who know that I love them and cherish them and that I put them above myself.
All any of us can do in this world is live honestly and with a self-integrity which can never be taken from us. I wish everyone reading this so much love and compassion, and I hope that if you've had to make similar sacrifices, that you hold your head up proudly, because you've done a fine thing toward another human being.
Here is Madison's poem:
"To Mom
Without judgment
Selfless love you showed
Despite inner pain you felt
You made the better choice
Not always in the flesh
Displayed love nonetheless
Showing you always care
Even though you can’t be here
You help to always make the best
Even when put to test
Few people could do what you do
Don’t think you’re weak
Because I believe in you
To the one dearest in my heart
One who understands my thoughts
To the one who believes in dreamers
I’m proud to call you my mother
I love you!"
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Published on April 12, 2012 12:12
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March 14, 2012
One of my earliest childhood memories is when I was three-years-old dancing with my father to Disco music in the living room of our Bay Area home. A singer/songwriter, my father is and always has been an amazing dancer--the sort of fellow who could watch someone dance, and replicate the same steps within a few easy tries. Even now, I remember some of the simple dance moves from that day, and still have a lingering appreciation for the love of music which my parents shared with me--especially for Disco.
Similar to the Swing Kids of the Big Band era, Disco had a huge following by the African American, Latino, and LGBT communities. Like other art forms, its popularity transcended cultural and language barriers, being influenced by such music genres as soul, funk, jazz, classical and calypso. It brought masses of people together with its heavy repetitive bass rhythms and reverberating vocals which tended to be physically invigorating in nature.
At the height of its popularity between 1974 and 1977, Disco was more costly to produce than other genres produced during the decade, requiring the use of electric instruments and gadgets (such as wah pedals) alongside traditional orchestral instruments. The violin, cello, trumpets and piano were recorded together with synthesizers in layers to a prominent beat which was reminiscent of a merengue rhythm. One of the coolest things about Disco is that it was an innovative art form which interpreted many classic genres of music and expanded upon them using modern technology.
New York City, San Francisco, Los Angeles, and Miami were homes to the largest disco club scenes, with New York City's Studio 54 being the most legendary--in fact, Studio 54 was the most popular dance club in the world at Disco's peak. Everyone from Salvador Dali, Michael Jackson, Andy Warhol, and Liza Minelli attended Studio 54 which was known for its sublime sound system.
Some of Disco's most popular artists:
The Bee Gees~
Originally from Manchester, England, this group was comprised of three brothers who co-wrote their musical hits. They are known for such songs as "Night Fever," "How Deep Is Your Love," and "Stayin' Alive."
Donna Summer~
"The Queen of Disco," Donna Summer's mezzo-soprano vocals made her the first artist on the US Billboard Chart to have three consecutive double-albums reach number one.
Diana Ross~
Originally a Motown artist, Diana Ross embraced Disco and went on to have many hits throughout the era. "Upside Down," "Love Hangover," and "I'm Coming Out."
Bands such as Blondie, Pink Floyd, Queen, and Electric Light Orchestra have songs displaying disco influences.
There is much to learn from music--amazing to think we've only had the technology to record music for a relatively short time now. Who knows what other influences would have been used to create Disco?
Similar to the Swing Kids of the Big Band era, Disco had a huge following by the African American, Latino, and LGBT communities. Like other art forms, its popularity transcended cultural and language barriers, being influenced by such music genres as soul, funk, jazz, classical and calypso. It brought masses of people together with its heavy repetitive bass rhythms and reverberating vocals which tended to be physically invigorating in nature.
At the height of its popularity between 1974 and 1977, Disco was more costly to produce than other genres produced during the decade, requiring the use of electric instruments and gadgets (such as wah pedals) alongside traditional orchestral instruments. The violin, cello, trumpets and piano were recorded together with synthesizers in layers to a prominent beat which was reminiscent of a merengue rhythm. One of the coolest things about Disco is that it was an innovative art form which interpreted many classic genres of music and expanded upon them using modern technology.
New York City, San Francisco, Los Angeles, and Miami were homes to the largest disco club scenes, with New York City's Studio 54 being the most legendary--in fact, Studio 54 was the most popular dance club in the world at Disco's peak. Everyone from Salvador Dali, Michael Jackson, Andy Warhol, and Liza Minelli attended Studio 54 which was known for its sublime sound system.
Some of Disco's most popular artists:
The Bee Gees~
Originally from Manchester, England, this group was comprised of three brothers who co-wrote their musical hits. They are known for such songs as "Night Fever," "How Deep Is Your Love," and "Stayin' Alive."
Donna Summer~
"The Queen of Disco," Donna Summer's mezzo-soprano vocals made her the first artist on the US Billboard Chart to have three consecutive double-albums reach number one.
Diana Ross~
Originally a Motown artist, Diana Ross embraced Disco and went on to have many hits throughout the era. "Upside Down," "Love Hangover," and "I'm Coming Out."
Bands such as Blondie, Pink Floyd, Queen, and Electric Light Orchestra have songs displaying disco influences.
There is much to learn from music--amazing to think we've only had the technology to record music for a relatively short time now. Who knows what other influences would have been used to create Disco?
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Published on March 14, 2012 20:53
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January 22, 2012
To modern day audiences, silent films often appear melodramatic with their pantomimed gestures, title cards, and dramatic makeup and costumes. However, they were truly high quality films which were cutting edge for their time, documenting--not only art and fashion, but, society's standards and views.
The first silent film "Roundhay Garden Scene," depicted a two second scene of people walking in an English garden. Shot by Louis le Prince between 1877 and 1880, it is the oldest surviving film to date.
The "Silent Era" took place between 1894 and 1929, being later replaced by the "talkies" of the late 1920's. They were filmed at a speed ranging from 12 to 26 frames per second, with 16 frames per second being the preferred speed.
Silent films were nearly always accompanied by live music which added emotional atmosphere. Pianists were responsible for improvising and adding dramatic flair to the theater experience.
Exaggerated facial expressions and body gestures were often the result of many stage actors taking to the screen. However, it soon became clear that natural action on screen was what audiences preferred, and many early silent film actors gave way to those actors who developed through their film careers.
A few actors known for their silent films are:
Sarah Bernhardt~
"The Divine Sarah" was the first great stage actress to appear in silent films. Often referred to as "the most famous actress the world has ever known," she was a pioneer for her time. She performed "Hamlet" in a two minute long film produced in 1900 which is one of the first examples of a moving picture with sound.
Clara Bow~
Known as "The It Girl," Clara Bow was the silent film era's sex icon, with 46 silent films, and 11 "talkies" under her belt. Her big break came in "Beyond the Rainbow" which premiered February 19, 1922.
Rudolph Valentino~
The "Latin Lover," Valentino's film "The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse" was one of the first films to gross one million dollars in sales at the box office. He was known for his outlandish behavior, including having to get his marriage to Rambova annulled on grounds of bigamy. Every one of his marriages was to a woman with a documented history of lesbian relationships, causing many to speculate on Valentino's sexuality.
Charlie Chaplin~
Chaplin's role as "The Tramp" made him the world's most famous film star by the end of the first World War. He wrote, produced, directed, starred in, and composed the musical scores for many of his own films. "The Tramp's" screen debut was February 9, 1914 in "Mabel's Strange Predicament."
The "Silent Film Era" was largely experimental and groundbreaking. Its art was widely accessible to America's large immigrant population whose limited English was not inhibited by language barriers.
Little has changed in this regard. Film still has the ability to move hearts into action, to inspire, to educate, and to connect large masses of people together. It is an important tool in documenting the world's views, and in preserving individuals, nature, or moments in time which should never be forgotten.
The first silent film "Roundhay Garden Scene," depicted a two second scene of people walking in an English garden. Shot by Louis le Prince between 1877 and 1880, it is the oldest surviving film to date.
The "Silent Era" took place between 1894 and 1929, being later replaced by the "talkies" of the late 1920's. They were filmed at a speed ranging from 12 to 26 frames per second, with 16 frames per second being the preferred speed.
Silent films were nearly always accompanied by live music which added emotional atmosphere. Pianists were responsible for improvising and adding dramatic flair to the theater experience.
Exaggerated facial expressions and body gestures were often the result of many stage actors taking to the screen. However, it soon became clear that natural action on screen was what audiences preferred, and many early silent film actors gave way to those actors who developed through their film careers.
A few actors known for their silent films are:
Sarah Bernhardt~
"The Divine Sarah" was the first great stage actress to appear in silent films. Often referred to as "the most famous actress the world has ever known," she was a pioneer for her time. She performed "Hamlet" in a two minute long film produced in 1900 which is one of the first examples of a moving picture with sound.
Clara Bow~
Known as "The It Girl," Clara Bow was the silent film era's sex icon, with 46 silent films, and 11 "talkies" under her belt. Her big break came in "Beyond the Rainbow" which premiered February 19, 1922.
Rudolph Valentino~
The "Latin Lover," Valentino's film "The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse" was one of the first films to gross one million dollars in sales at the box office. He was known for his outlandish behavior, including having to get his marriage to Rambova annulled on grounds of bigamy. Every one of his marriages was to a woman with a documented history of lesbian relationships, causing many to speculate on Valentino's sexuality.
Charlie Chaplin~
Chaplin's role as "The Tramp" made him the world's most famous film star by the end of the first World War. He wrote, produced, directed, starred in, and composed the musical scores for many of his own films. "The Tramp's" screen debut was February 9, 1914 in "Mabel's Strange Predicament."
The "Silent Film Era" was largely experimental and groundbreaking. Its art was widely accessible to America's large immigrant population whose limited English was not inhibited by language barriers.
Little has changed in this regard. Film still has the ability to move hearts into action, to inspire, to educate, and to connect large masses of people together. It is an important tool in documenting the world's views, and in preserving individuals, nature, or moments in time which should never be forgotten.
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Published on January 22, 2012 12:39
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January 2, 2012
I've always been a huge Woody Allen fan--his clever banter, jokes which surpass the first punchline of the moment, and his old-fashioned romanticism which never fails to win the audience over are reasons to indulge in his art. Other reasons to spend an hour or two watching a Woody Allen film are the characters which are sexually diverse and never boring, while his early films feature the talents of Diane Keaton--a creative genius in her own right.
Diane Keaton and Woody Allen first met in 1968 when she auditioned for the Broadway play "Play It Again, Sam," which was written and directed by Allen. On February 12, 1969, "Play It Again, Sam" was first performed and ran for 453 performances. It also featured Tony Roberts who was also starred in the 1972 feature film of "Play It Again, Sam" along with Allen and Keaton.
Within a period of five years, Diane Keaton and Woody Allen not only dated, but starred in a total of four films together.
*"Play It Again, Sam" 1972
*"Sleeper" 1973
*"Love and Death" 1975
*"Annie Hall" 1977
*"Manhattan Murder Mystery" 1993
"I could never write female characters when I started out. And when I met Diane Keaton, and got friendly with her, and lived with her for a few years, I became so enamored of her, just fell in love with her. I became so enamored of her as a human being, so in awe of her, that I started to write for her. I wrote Annie Hall for her, and then after that I could almost only write for women characters," said Woody Allen.
Slightly eccentric with a speech pattern which was unique, Diane Keaton won the Oscar for her role as Annie Hall--a character which is known for Keaton's decision to dress in layered skirts, a button up collar, and a men's tie. Interestingly enough, Hall is Keaton's surname, while Annie was a nickname given to her by Allen.
While Vanity Fair once called Keaton "the most reclusive star since Garbo," she recently released a memoir titled "Then Again" in November of 2011. She is one of the most diverse and interesting actresses to date. The San Francisco Examiner once said of Keaton,"No longer relying on that stuttering uncertainty that seeped into all her characterizations of the 1970s, she has somehow become Katharine Hepburn with a deep maternal instinct, that is, she is a fine and intelligent actress who doesn't need to be tough and edgy in order to prove her feminism."
Sometimes on film there are magical moments--Astaire and Rogers, Gable and Harlow, Hepburn and Tracy, and Allen and Keaton. If you're searching for a wonderful comedy which will have you rolling on the floor, I suggest you start with "Sleeper." "Play It Again, Sam" is a love story in which friendship is the truest form of love, while "Annie Hall" is a classic.
On December 28th, 2011, I saw Woody Allen perform with his New Orleans Jazz Band. It was reminiscent of an old Juke Joint, and just as lively as the music took the audience back to another era.
We are living among some of the greatest artists to grace history--a gift and an honor. Perhaps, you're one of those artists. Today, I pay homage to Diane Keaton and Woody Allen who I hope will inspire you as much as they inspire me!
Diane Keaton and Woody Allen first met in 1968 when she auditioned for the Broadway play "Play It Again, Sam," which was written and directed by Allen. On February 12, 1969, "Play It Again, Sam" was first performed and ran for 453 performances. It also featured Tony Roberts who was also starred in the 1972 feature film of "Play It Again, Sam" along with Allen and Keaton.
Within a period of five years, Diane Keaton and Woody Allen not only dated, but starred in a total of four films together.
*"Play It Again, Sam" 1972
*"Sleeper" 1973
*"Love and Death" 1975
*"Annie Hall" 1977
*"Manhattan Murder Mystery" 1993
"I could never write female characters when I started out. And when I met Diane Keaton, and got friendly with her, and lived with her for a few years, I became so enamored of her, just fell in love with her. I became so enamored of her as a human being, so in awe of her, that I started to write for her. I wrote Annie Hall for her, and then after that I could almost only write for women characters," said Woody Allen.
Slightly eccentric with a speech pattern which was unique, Diane Keaton won the Oscar for her role as Annie Hall--a character which is known for Keaton's decision to dress in layered skirts, a button up collar, and a men's tie. Interestingly enough, Hall is Keaton's surname, while Annie was a nickname given to her by Allen.
While Vanity Fair once called Keaton "the most reclusive star since Garbo," she recently released a memoir titled "Then Again" in November of 2011. She is one of the most diverse and interesting actresses to date. The San Francisco Examiner once said of Keaton,"No longer relying on that stuttering uncertainty that seeped into all her characterizations of the 1970s, she has somehow become Katharine Hepburn with a deep maternal instinct, that is, she is a fine and intelligent actress who doesn't need to be tough and edgy in order to prove her feminism."
Sometimes on film there are magical moments--Astaire and Rogers, Gable and Harlow, Hepburn and Tracy, and Allen and Keaton. If you're searching for a wonderful comedy which will have you rolling on the floor, I suggest you start with "Sleeper." "Play It Again, Sam" is a love story in which friendship is the truest form of love, while "Annie Hall" is a classic.
On December 28th, 2011, I saw Woody Allen perform with his New Orleans Jazz Band. It was reminiscent of an old Juke Joint, and just as lively as the music took the audience back to another era.
We are living among some of the greatest artists to grace history--a gift and an honor. Perhaps, you're one of those artists. Today, I pay homage to Diane Keaton and Woody Allen who I hope will inspire you as much as they inspire me!
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Published on January 02, 2012 12:22
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December 10, 2011
It was Thursday, and I was enjoying the warm rays of sun which penetrated the bus window. I know some people hate public transportation, but I actually love sitting on a warm bus when the sun is shining, and the air outside is cooled to a crisp chill.
I live out by the beach on the opposite side from San Francisco's downtown area. When I catch a bus, it starts out empty with me being one of the few occupying seats, and quickly fills so that it is stuffed by the time it reaches Market Street.
On this particular day, every seat was taken, except for a seat beside the window which was next to me. The bus stopped. People began to enter the doors and search for a spot to rest in--but the only available seat was beside me, and a woman carrying a canvas bag decorated with purple, green, and gold flowers sat next to me. I instantly knew those colors were important to her on many levels.
She was delicate in appearance, with long slender fingers which looked as though she played stringed instruments, understood how to handle a camera at just the right angle, or possessed the confidence needed for a swift stroke as a paintbrush met with canvas. I knew she was an artist on many levels.
She placed her hand on my shoulder as she sat beside me. Her touch was delicate and warm, innocent and affectionate in a way which told me she is much more tactile than the average person, and she has a true love for people in general.
She began speaking to me, asked me where her stop was located, how to use a bus transfer, and told me she was from Maryland but currently lived in Australia. I could tell she was a happy person, by the animated way she moved her hands when she spoke. I also kept noticing how she would place her hand on me as we conversed.
I'm an extremely affectionate person by nature. I love hugs and cuddles, and desire to hug and kiss animals, children and people who I feel are endearing. I liked that this woman was also this way. In fact, I felt as though I'd known her for a hundred years, and we were just visiting one another after having an extended break.
The woman told me her name was Katie. Katie who sometimes worked as an editor. We were both speaking quickly, trying to learn as much about each other as possible since we were both running late for whatever appointments we had that afternoon.
What surprised me more than all else was this:
"My birthday is February 20th," she said to me.
I had already felt several jolts of electricity which told me, "This woman is special--there are important things to learn here!"
When I told her that my birthday was also February 20th, we stared at one another in surprise for a moment and exchanged a few words which told me she understood how unusual our meeting was, how special it was, and how curious she was.
"What time were you born?" she asked.
"7:30 in the morning," I answered.
"The next stop is your stop," the woman sitting behind us said to Katie--she must have been listening to our conversation.
"I almost forgot about my stop. I'm so distracted by this woman who has my birthday," Katie said, as she smiled at me.
As she exited the bus, we exchanged contact information, but knew she would be traveling so contact would not be easy.
Meeting Katie was a gift, something special which reminded me that I'm not alone in this world--there is someone else out there who is very much like me, someone understands the importance of the colors on her bag, the rays of light which be seen around things--someone, who recognizes the signals which the world sends to us every day in order to remind us that love is everywhere to be found if we will only take a moment to notice!
I live out by the beach on the opposite side from San Francisco's downtown area. When I catch a bus, it starts out empty with me being one of the few occupying seats, and quickly fills so that it is stuffed by the time it reaches Market Street.
On this particular day, every seat was taken, except for a seat beside the window which was next to me. The bus stopped. People began to enter the doors and search for a spot to rest in--but the only available seat was beside me, and a woman carrying a canvas bag decorated with purple, green, and gold flowers sat next to me. I instantly knew those colors were important to her on many levels.
She was delicate in appearance, with long slender fingers which looked as though she played stringed instruments, understood how to handle a camera at just the right angle, or possessed the confidence needed for a swift stroke as a paintbrush met with canvas. I knew she was an artist on many levels.
She placed her hand on my shoulder as she sat beside me. Her touch was delicate and warm, innocent and affectionate in a way which told me she is much more tactile than the average person, and she has a true love for people in general.
She began speaking to me, asked me where her stop was located, how to use a bus transfer, and told me she was from Maryland but currently lived in Australia. I could tell she was a happy person, by the animated way she moved her hands when she spoke. I also kept noticing how she would place her hand on me as we conversed.
I'm an extremely affectionate person by nature. I love hugs and cuddles, and desire to hug and kiss animals, children and people who I feel are endearing. I liked that this woman was also this way. In fact, I felt as though I'd known her for a hundred years, and we were just visiting one another after having an extended break.
The woman told me her name was Katie. Katie who sometimes worked as an editor. We were both speaking quickly, trying to learn as much about each other as possible since we were both running late for whatever appointments we had that afternoon.
What surprised me more than all else was this:
"My birthday is February 20th," she said to me.
I had already felt several jolts of electricity which told me, "This woman is special--there are important things to learn here!"
When I told her that my birthday was also February 20th, we stared at one another in surprise for a moment and exchanged a few words which told me she understood how unusual our meeting was, how special it was, and how curious she was.
"What time were you born?" she asked.
"7:30 in the morning," I answered.
"The next stop is your stop," the woman sitting behind us said to Katie--she must have been listening to our conversation.
"I almost forgot about my stop. I'm so distracted by this woman who has my birthday," Katie said, as she smiled at me.
As she exited the bus, we exchanged contact information, but knew she would be traveling so contact would not be easy.
Meeting Katie was a gift, something special which reminded me that I'm not alone in this world--there is someone else out there who is very much like me, someone understands the importance of the colors on her bag, the rays of light which be seen around things--someone, who recognizes the signals which the world sends to us every day in order to remind us that love is everywhere to be found if we will only take a moment to notice!
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Published on December 10, 2011 09:25
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November 23, 2011
Stylish, innovative, and intelligent, Lux Zakari is an author whose novels truly reflect the changing times. Powerful, headstrong, and complex, her leading female characters prove that any genre of fiction is worth reading if written well. After all, the true path to a woman's heart is through her mind, and Zakari's erotic novels are a perfect example of this!
What is it you love about erotic fiction?
I can’t help writing erotic fiction! All my writing takes a turn for the sexy, and that was the case even before I started writing erotica. I find it inevitable when I’m writing about love and the like. Most of my characters are involved in intense, slightly obsessive life-changing relationships, so there’s no way I want to skimp on the doin’ it.
When did you decide you wanted to write, not just fiction, but erotic fiction?
I used to be extremely shy about writing erotica. My characters would start inching toward the bedroom and I’d be like, “Ah! I can’t!” I was just too embarrassed; it felt like something I just should not be writing about. It wasn’t until the urging of a good friend, a fellow erotica writer, that I decided to try my hand at it and we worked on a smutty novel together. When our collaboration came to an end, I decided to take on the genre myself—and wrote Coercion.
How did you overcome any inhibitions you may have felt over writing material which some might find offensive?
Not all my inhibitions have been overcome. I’m still hesitant about telling people what I write about in fear of weirding them out or casting expectations on myself, but no worries. These days, I mostly see it as like my little secret, one only a lucky few know.
What is it about writing that makes it a perfect medium for you?
I dabble in a variety of artsy mediums, like painting, drawing and photography, but nothing truly captures what I’m trying to convey like words do. I love playing with combinations derived from the alphabet, searching for the absolute best way to phrase a sentence. I also really enjoy storytelling and all the problem-solving that comes along with it. And honestly, writing helps me work through issues in my own life. In a way, I sort of trick people into reading exaggerated a/o fictionalized pieces of my journal and all the crazy thoughts in my mind. Each of my novels is like a snapshot of my head at certain points in time, and I hope it shows a path of growth.
Your work often shows strong ties to the past and the character’s journey forward—what is it about the past you wish to preserve?
I feel like the past is crucial when detecting patterns both good and bad and, ultimately, learning about one’s self. Most of my characters have to look backward, and inward, and think, “Okay, everything’s all fucked up, but why? What am I doing wrong? What can I learn here?” Also, why should we forget the past? Yes, some of it is painful, but some of it is so awesome and beautiful, and it can help us get through the painful nows so we can have beautiful, awesome tomorrows.
What types of ideas inspire your emotionally and psychologically complex characters?
Truly, all kinds! Everything starts off as an idle “what if?” premise that occasionally winds up snowballing out of control. For example, I came up with Secretly More when musing about how hot it’d be if a girl was in some Eyes Wide Shut scenario and had no idea that the guy she was with was someone she knew who’d been in love with her forever. Then I had to stop and think, “How would that work? And furthermore, how could I write that as forgivable?” I think it’s good to challenge one’s self as a writer by justifying a character’s behavior when he or she does something you don’t at all agree with.
What would you say is your strength as a writer?
I believe I do well at creating dialogue and creative sex scenes, as well as putting myself in each character’s place; I believe in everything they do because I understand why they do it. But mostly, I feel my strength is that I’m having fun when I write, and I think a reader can tell!
For you, what is technically difficult about writing a sex scene versus a love scene?
Pacing in a sex scene can get tricky; you don’t want to rush through it, but like all things, it can’t last forever. Also, even though I love words, I find that I “use up” a lot of the ones that don’t make me out-and-out cringe, so sometimes that’s a struggle to keep that in check. And sometimes, quite honestly, writing a sex scene can even be boring when all I want to do is just write some witty, flirty banter. Still, nothing can beat making a sexy, novel idea work. And it’s a real high to turn someone on using words—that’s influencing someone’s imagination and body by arranging letters a certain way without ever being present.
Which artists inspire you?
Most of my inspiration is derived from music artists. I am easily swept up in a song and when I write, I often create soundtracks for my books to help motivate me to write. As for which musicians inspire me, it all depends on the nature of the story. For Coercion, it was Fleetwood Mac, Led Zeppelin and the like; for Finale, it was Depeche Mode and the Eurythmics. I have a story in the works that is heavily influenced by Florence + the Machine.
What is the message you hope readers gain from your work?
I’d like readers to wring some hope out of my work, and I hope my writing gives them insight to their own lives. I like the idea that I could be communicating with and helping someone without knowing it. But mostly, I hope that my novels will be recognized as damn good stories, regardless of a happy ending.
If you would like to know more about Lux Zakari and her latest novel "Secretly More," please look at her website:
http://luxzakari.com/
Thank you so much for the interview Lux!
What is it you love about erotic fiction?
I can’t help writing erotic fiction! All my writing takes a turn for the sexy, and that was the case even before I started writing erotica. I find it inevitable when I’m writing about love and the like. Most of my characters are involved in intense, slightly obsessive life-changing relationships, so there’s no way I want to skimp on the doin’ it.
When did you decide you wanted to write, not just fiction, but erotic fiction?
I used to be extremely shy about writing erotica. My characters would start inching toward the bedroom and I’d be like, “Ah! I can’t!” I was just too embarrassed; it felt like something I just should not be writing about. It wasn’t until the urging of a good friend, a fellow erotica writer, that I decided to try my hand at it and we worked on a smutty novel together. When our collaboration came to an end, I decided to take on the genre myself—and wrote Coercion.
How did you overcome any inhibitions you may have felt over writing material which some might find offensive?
Not all my inhibitions have been overcome. I’m still hesitant about telling people what I write about in fear of weirding them out or casting expectations on myself, but no worries. These days, I mostly see it as like my little secret, one only a lucky few know.
What is it about writing that makes it a perfect medium for you?
I dabble in a variety of artsy mediums, like painting, drawing and photography, but nothing truly captures what I’m trying to convey like words do. I love playing with combinations derived from the alphabet, searching for the absolute best way to phrase a sentence. I also really enjoy storytelling and all the problem-solving that comes along with it. And honestly, writing helps me work through issues in my own life. In a way, I sort of trick people into reading exaggerated a/o fictionalized pieces of my journal and all the crazy thoughts in my mind. Each of my novels is like a snapshot of my head at certain points in time, and I hope it shows a path of growth.
Your work often shows strong ties to the past and the character’s journey forward—what is it about the past you wish to preserve?
I feel like the past is crucial when detecting patterns both good and bad and, ultimately, learning about one’s self. Most of my characters have to look backward, and inward, and think, “Okay, everything’s all fucked up, but why? What am I doing wrong? What can I learn here?” Also, why should we forget the past? Yes, some of it is painful, but some of it is so awesome and beautiful, and it can help us get through the painful nows so we can have beautiful, awesome tomorrows.
What types of ideas inspire your emotionally and psychologically complex characters?
Truly, all kinds! Everything starts off as an idle “what if?” premise that occasionally winds up snowballing out of control. For example, I came up with Secretly More when musing about how hot it’d be if a girl was in some Eyes Wide Shut scenario and had no idea that the guy she was with was someone she knew who’d been in love with her forever. Then I had to stop and think, “How would that work? And furthermore, how could I write that as forgivable?” I think it’s good to challenge one’s self as a writer by justifying a character’s behavior when he or she does something you don’t at all agree with.
What would you say is your strength as a writer?
I believe I do well at creating dialogue and creative sex scenes, as well as putting myself in each character’s place; I believe in everything they do because I understand why they do it. But mostly, I feel my strength is that I’m having fun when I write, and I think a reader can tell!
For you, what is technically difficult about writing a sex scene versus a love scene?
Pacing in a sex scene can get tricky; you don’t want to rush through it, but like all things, it can’t last forever. Also, even though I love words, I find that I “use up” a lot of the ones that don’t make me out-and-out cringe, so sometimes that’s a struggle to keep that in check. And sometimes, quite honestly, writing a sex scene can even be boring when all I want to do is just write some witty, flirty banter. Still, nothing can beat making a sexy, novel idea work. And it’s a real high to turn someone on using words—that’s influencing someone’s imagination and body by arranging letters a certain way without ever being present.
Which artists inspire you?
Most of my inspiration is derived from music artists. I am easily swept up in a song and when I write, I often create soundtracks for my books to help motivate me to write. As for which musicians inspire me, it all depends on the nature of the story. For Coercion, it was Fleetwood Mac, Led Zeppelin and the like; for Finale, it was Depeche Mode and the Eurythmics. I have a story in the works that is heavily influenced by Florence + the Machine.
What is the message you hope readers gain from your work?
I’d like readers to wring some hope out of my work, and I hope my writing gives them insight to their own lives. I like the idea that I could be communicating with and helping someone without knowing it. But mostly, I hope that my novels will be recognized as damn good stories, regardless of a happy ending.
If you would like to know more about Lux Zakari and her latest novel "Secretly More," please look at her website:
http://luxzakari.com/
Thank you so much for the interview Lux!
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Published on November 23, 2011 13:04
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